i want to be ok
i want to be happy again
but i forgot how to be
with this ominous cloud of depression over head
its very hard to remember
once the storm rolls in
it turns into weeks and weeks of sadness and swirling storms inside
in this hurricane of insecurities and self hatred
its hard to wait it out
the one thing i wait for is the calm before the next storm
its such a short period of time where i forget
forget about everything
and then it all starts over