I feel lost and empty, just a shell of someone I used to be
I fell into a dark hole of depression and self hatred because of so many people have telling me lies about myself
they no longer need to because i finally started to believe them and started to say them to myself.
I can no longer let my tears hit my pillow that is now soaking wet with the droplets of sadness
people say everything is ok but it isn't
once you get to the place I'm in, there is no going back
you are just surrounded by your thoughts, thoughts of death and how much everyone will be so much happier without you there
without me here