In a relationship...
Ur a team...
U shouldnt blame yourself..
Or the other..((unless they cheat))
If u truly love someone u are willing to try...
To anyone in one...take note to this....
My relationship....
I try so hard to try and keep it together...it seems im the only one trying...
She always blames herself.....
Or says we are to young...
But its all i have....
I know i wont move on.....
I know ur gonna be like "perla everyone eventually moves on"...
But if it came to it....
I would wait all those years for her....
She made me promise...
Id marry her one day.....
And i want that promise to be kept....
I want her to try and keep this relationship stable...
Even if later in highschool....
We wont be a thing anymore...
I want to be it now....
Because i know...
There are better people...
She seems to smile and everything around everyone else but me....
Even the people she dislikes...
And thats fine....
I just want her to speak....to me...
And be comfortable around me...
Because if she is....
Then i am to...
I didnt speak or get near her cause i thought she might be mad...
Or if i talked or even touched her...
If she wasnt mad before she will get mad....
Im not complaining...
I love my relationship...even if it has its downsides...
But im just like a puppy...
Like i said last chapter...
I need love and attention..
..and the good kind...
Only then am i happy...
Even if im not treated special...
Im treated like her friend...
But as long as we are both happy...
We can be friends...
In that relationship...
Although i dont see her as my friend anymore...
If it helps...she can treat me as her friend...

On a non depressing and not related to my relationship problems...

I dont have homework...
Im happy because of that...
Yay!
I also got tamales...
Yay!
The school year is almost over....
Yay!!!
(im not really exciting...
Cause i have a feelings as soon as its over she is gonna break it off...))
And thats it...