"Can't you just ever get serious?"

His words were again echoing in my ear, piercing my heart completely...
Though my mind was screaming to ignore, the  heart was again crying in pain..

How much I wanted to keep my promise , my tears were breaking it once again..

It's been 3 years now that I last cried..
Everyone thinks I don't have problems,
they say my happy bubbles don't shatter..
My dreams don't break..
And
I just keep wishing that one day they will understand me...

But I guess
They won't ever understand ,
How it feels to smile,when your own  world is crashing down..

They won't ever understand how it feels to live when your soul is dying..

They won't ever understand how it feels while standing when actually you are breaking...

They won't..They just won't ever.

I just sometimes wish I had never made that promise..but then how was I going to deny his last wish? How was I supposed to behave selfish?
I still remember that day when everything just shattered..
That blast was taking his last breath and he was still asking me to smile..
He was still taking promise to never cry..
He was still being so stubborn to defeat me..
And I lost..I lost in front of him.. finally promising him to never cry..

I didn't cried even when they were taking him forever
I didn't cried even when they were burning him in front of me..
I didn't...
And I will never...

Though my heart will always be crying, I promise my eyes will always smile..
I promise...

Authors note**

My readers wanted me to try emotional writing.. so here u go..
Emotional things are not my cup of tea still tried..
Hope u will love it :)

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