"Breath in.." The instructor was walking around the room demonstrating her instructions. I took a deep breath in and exhaled when I was told.

I felt amazing doing these exercises and with Nubia sitting right behind me made me feel even better.

"Now Daddies...other mommy-," The instructor smiled at Nubia, "-slowly wrap your arms around mommy's tummy and massage in circular motions. Let mommy rest her body into yours..." She said observing the other soon-to-be parents.

I was nervous until I felt Nubia's smooth skin and chiseled arms wrap around my stomach. I wasn't as big as some of the other women but you could definitely tell I was four and half months along.

"Just relax my love," She whispered kissing the back of my ear. Chills went down my spine and I was able to relax into her hug. I closed my eyes once my head hit her shoulder. She carefully massaged my stomach and sung soft nurseries in my ear.

I love this. I crave her touch but I feen for her love and affection. She's taking what I said into consideration. She wants a family and technically we do have one, but our own child. Who knows... maybe we'll get married, get a big house, have nice jobs....

But I'm a screw up...

A runway... I lived a shitty life and I'm haunted by what I use to do. I'm carrying my Rapist' child and I still, to this day, find myself thinking about Kaylee. She's really gone. My family was suppose to be with her, but I'm grateful because I really do have someone besides Maverick that loves me. At least I think she loves me... don't get me wrong I know Kaylee loved me. She just had a weird way of showing it. I'll always love her. 

"Baby?" Nubia whispered. I inwardly cringed and blushed. She called me baby.

"Hmm.."

"You feel ok?"

"I feel amazing with you," I smiled.

"Beautiful! The session is now over." The instructor said. "As you leave the room, fathers and of course you sweetie, please grab a gift basket and a water. This is our appreciation gift to you for coming and joining our program. We will have these Tuesdays and Thursday and every other Saturday we throw small get together as for all the soon-to-be parents," She said. Everyone started to get up and put up their mats. Nubia helped me up rolling up our mat and putting it back in the bin it belonged in.

We walked towards the exit and she was standing there shaking everyone's hands. She then came to us.

"Thank you both for coming and I must say you two are absolutely beautiful together. I wish you luck on your journey and that your baby is born with excellent health." She smiled. "Here," She handed us her card, "I do private sessions and I am also a midwife. It's early on but I would love to help you guys with the birth of your child. Until then I can help guide you towards a smooth and healthy pregnancy and birth." She said.

She seems very nice. I don't know what a midwife is but the way she said it I'm guessing she helps women give birth. I don't know what kind of birth I want. I searched and Natural(vaginal) is most common but lately I've been seeing home births and water births. Something that makes me feel comfortable. I can be home and maybe her family can see the birth of the baby.

"Also I know who you are," She whispered. My eyes grew wide. I stepped back a little and Nubia was giving her a look. "Macey I won't tell on you."

"H-How do I know that?" I looked at her.

"Remember Ricky?...Wayne?"

His name... every time I heard his name I wanted to scream my lungs out to where I no longer spoke another word as long as I exist. Hearing his name makes me feel fear. He did this to me and He out through bad situations. I was used as someone's sex toy three or four times a day, twenty-four seven.

I lost my sanity and dignity as a girl, just for a buck and good business in his name. God How much I want erase his name out of my life.

"Y-Yea..." My voice cracked. Nubia pulled me into a hug. She has no idea who we're talking about so I should be prepared to answer some questions...

"I'm sorry that I brought him up but remember when you first came those two girls on the couch they talked about trading?" I looked at her suspiciously.

"Fin let me know some nigga," He said hitting some average size mix breed nigga.

"We got 10 coming in from atlanta and 5 from California. I also got a call from Fernando he got a couple offers for you." He said.

Ole dude nodded his head, "That's it though?" He asked.

"Actually no, we got a trade. Vicky and Sabrina for 2 thick jawns from Puerto Rico and Colombia." He said pointing out these scrawny girls sitting on a couch. One was twirling her dirty blonde hair and the other just popping her damn bubble gum. They both look ugly as hell.

"I was one of them. Sabrina... after they got rid of me the guy I was traded to didn't want me but he paid me well for my services that night-" Nubia furrowed her eyebrows. Maybe she's starting to catch on to what we're talking about. Fuck.

"Mhmm..." I cleared my throat.

"Oh... well he gave me a duffel and Paid off my books. I came here and bought a nice apartment and enrolled at the local college. I did end up pregnant so I took on yoga classes and fell in love with the way it felt and took upon myself to do this. I started my own program and it's been booming since."

"I'm happy for you.." I smiled. "I'm sorry you went through all of that-"

"No it's ok... I know it's his." She said looking down at my stomach. "Word spreads and I know it's part of the reason you came here." Trust me I understand. I won't tell. I promise..." She smiled.

I nodded slowly. "Please give me a call if you need any help with your pregnancy." She said and went to talk to the couple behind us.

Nubia had a look on her face I couldn't read. I was nervous for whatever she might say.

She helped me to the car and got in cranking the car up. We backed out and drove off.

"Can we talk?" She asked.

"What about?"

"You..The baby's father." I looked out the window. Tears brimmed my eyes. I hate talking about it but I need to tell her in order to move past it.

"I was raped by the person I prostituted for..." She practically slammed on the breaks jerking us forward as she quickly pulled over.

"What the f-"

"Why didn't you tell me?" She turned towards me with a clenched jaw.

"I didn't think I needed to-"

"Macey-"

"Nubia..." I shot back. This anger all of a sudden.

"Why did you think that?"

"C-Cause..." I sniffled. I hate my hormones...

"It was my fault anyway.."

"Look at me Macey-" She said sternly. I hesitated but finally built the courage to look at her. "Something like that is never your fault and I don't ever want to hear you say that again. He will rot in hell and This child-" She touched my tummy, "Our child , won't grow up ever thinking it was a bad mistake. That you and especially me was never grateful for. You didn't deserve it but at the end of the day look at what you're doing. You're creating beauty out of a man made hell. You shouldn't hold yourself accountable for him doing that to you. It was never your fault and never will it be your fault." She said softly. A year fell down mommy cheek. She kissed it away and dried my face.

"Regardless of what you did in your past you've made it this far. I'm thankful you found me. Now I get to take care of a beautiful woman, her child, and her brother. Of course when we get married I gotta make my lil brother in law my best man," She giggled when I rolled my eyes.

"Macey don't you worry. I'll keep us all safe." She said kissing my temple. "Don't ever be afraid of telling me anything you're holding in. In fact, we're taking Macey to Chuck-E-Cheese tonight." She smiled.

I started at her as she started to drive again.

I'm falling for her...

Kiera

"He's here," I said excitedly. My baby was finally back home. Me and his dad share custody and he takes him with him for 2 months. He's officially staying back up here since his dad is moving up here with me too.

At first, I didn't want him around my son. He was a hit man and worked for Ricky Wayne. Who doesn't know him?
Since Ricky was killed Tarrick decided to be a better father and I gave him a chance. Now we're all together.

"How is Ricky's family?" I asked Tarrick as he was bringing in my son. He was just waking up.

"Alright but now they're looking for one of his ex workers. Apparently she's pregnant by him and the family is looking for her. They know some stuff about her and they want custody of it."

"Well damn. What's the girl's name?"

"Tracey.... Casey.... Lacey.... shit something with -acey," He said.

What he said made me think. I thought of Macey but It couldn't be her. Just a coincidence with her name and that's she's pregnant. Plus she has a little brother. He didn't say she had a younger brother and most likely she ran away from home down there. Why would she come up here out of all places?

And the drama begins...