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Sitting in my room I loved just relaxing listening to the water race around the room. It was so tranquil and helped me think; though I still haven't talked to anyone besides Beau, I felt like I could truly make this place my home. I could see myself here growing up happily, not scared of what I can do to everyone else, not running from anyone. Just living peacefully for as long as I can. A part of my stomach dropped when I thought about staying here, about living here, something was going to happen wasn't it?
"Paisley could you come and join us?" I heard Nora call me.
Rushed out of my dream world I walked out of my wonder room and made my way through the maze of hallways outside where everyone else was taking turns hugging a man who was crouched down. "Paisley this is my brother Charles, he lives outside the barrier to work and to set up a cover to where we are."
"Hell Paisley," The man stood with Mina still clinging off of his arm. "I hope you've been happy here."
"Been?" I couldn't stop myself before I asked.
A small glimmer of joy danced over Nora's eyes at the first word she heard from me. "There's something I need to talk to all of you about. Happy news that I hope you all will take up."
I looked around to everyone else who was just as confused as I was. Nora wrapped her arm around my shoulders and led us all towards the lake. "You made me very happy Paisley, I know you're shy but I hope you are able to talk to the others as friends." Nora smiled to me.
"Nora, should we be worried?" Brittany raised her eyebrow.
"Nothing you all should be scared about, this is happy news, great news." Nora smiled as she spun and sat down on the ground. One by one I watched everyone sit down with her in a large circle.
"Come on Paisley, you can sit by me." Beau tapped the ground next to him.
I sat down quickly as we all just looked to Nora who was beaming with excitement. "Charles has brought a letter that will bring you all a wonderful future! There is a special academy just for sixth senses to raise them from children to not only just get you ready for the rest of your life, but learn your abilities so you will be able to grow into adults who can live without hiding. This academy promises also to set your future and they'll pay for you to go to college upon your graduation, wherever your dreams take you!"
I could see a mix of excitement and concern going around the circle as everyone just looked to Nora. "This is a new program and the people running it have personally contacted me so that you would be the first going followed by other foster homes for sixth senses. All of you will be going and meeting other people just like you, maybe some with the same abilities. You'll make new friends and anyone else any of us foster homes find will join you as soon as they can. This is a great opportunity and all of you will be perfectly safe as if you were still hidden under the barrier."
"What's the catch to all of this?" Beau asked, the rest of us just starred as Nora fought to stay happy.
"The only catch is the academy is like a boarding school and you will have live there on campus so you will no longer be living here." Nora's heart fought to cry as she looked at all the sad faces around her, no one wanted to leave. I hadn't even been here long and I don't want to leave. "I know it's not what some of you want but it is the best way for you to have a great life. You've all been accepted and the bus will be coming to the barrier to fetch you tomorrow. You have the rest of today to pack before you all leave." One tear fought passed Nora's defenses and showed how sad she truly was.
Mina was the first to start crying as she jumped into Nora's arms. They cried together as everyone started to show their sadness. All except me, they must think me as emotionless but I've lived everyday hiding my abilities but they're powered by emotion. I built a wall and it holds back all emotion to keep people safe from me. "You all should go start packing, I'll be in to help you all soon. Please just go and give me a minute." Mora's voice wavered as she closed her eyes so she wouldn't look at any of us.
Beau grabbed my arm to help drag me away, I caught a glimpse of Nora as we reentered the house, she was curled into a ball hugging her knees to her chest as Charles held her close to him. "She's spent her whole life protecting us, watching us all leave at once isn't exactly going to be easy for her. She's taken care of me since I was a baby, I know she told you differently and I know my parents aren't coming back. I've accepted it because Nora is like my mother, same goes for most of us, you just got here so you probably won't feel the same but had you been here for a month at least you would."
"I'm used to saying goodbye." I looked away.
"No, you're used to hiding your emotions." How did he? "You're kind of an open book, what they'd call a typical foster kid. One that travels from house to house probably never unpacking the few possessions you have knowing you'd be leaving soon."
Beau was right, my whole life had been house after house, never home. A bleak existence where I would barely leave my footprints on a beach before the waves wash them away like they were never there to begin with. "It's not the life I wanted. I still remember my mom and watching her being taken away from me."
"Was she like you?" Beau asked, he seemed to be very interested in my life.
"She was brave, I just know how to run. She told me that one day I'd get used to the difference between talking and my abilities." I held behind a choking sob in my heart.
"She is the only thing that can access your emotions isn't she? You must have been really close."
"I was really young. She showed me how to control people, she did so with such an art that it looked beautiful."
"Control? Like mind control?" I never actually told Beau what I was.
"No, it goes along with my voice."
"Oh a siren! Like those beautiful mystic creatures who lure sailors to their deaths. Darn I've heard their beauty is a sight to be see, now I really wish I wasn't blind I bet you're gorgeous." My face flustered red, good thing it was only Beau and I right now. I'd be doomed if anyone saw my face.
"Well I should leave the beautiful young siren to pack her things in peace otherwise I may be found lured to my own demise." Beau chuckled as he did a gracious bow before my bedroom door.
I stared into my room hoping the water's flow would help me calm my heart beat, or settle the red glow of my face. "Oh you're falling hard." Someone appeared behind me. It was someone I hadn't met yet, maybe Christine the one who hides in the attic. "I'm Zoey, Nora's daughter. I could feel that she needed someone so I dropped in but I guess your emotions blinded me and I went the wrong way. Don't worry, I can track strong emotions it's supposed to be some sixth sense of the heart. Emotions have a certain sensation they bring to me, different tastes and smells, different pulls. From you it shows how you you have a large pull towards Beau but you also resist it making the pull worse. You have dealt with loss and you fear getting close to anyone so you don't feel that hurt again."
"Please stop." I turned away trying not to think of my mother anymore.
"You're not only fighting your emotions, you're fighting your abilities. No, they're connected. You asked me to stop not telling me. You're a siren, your emotions are linked to your abilities; that's why you are pulling away from Beau. It's not that you're pulling away for yourself, you're pulling away because you want to protect him." Zoey kept going.
"Stop!" I shouted with a cry.
With that she didn't say another word, she just looked to me. When I looked back at her in fear of what I may have done she was smiling and just nodded her head before turning away. She's not scared of me, she wasn't even angry at what I did. She accepted it, she knew she pushed me and she knew it was her. And even with all of this she still was happy, she smiled at me as if I didn't do anything to her.
For the first time I wasn't completely in fear of my capabilities, I almost accepted them as part of me. I accepted them that they are part of me. They are who I am, they're what makes em special.
A flash went through my head as I collapsed to the ground; I saw my mother and once again heard her sweet voice, "Don't fear the siren inside you, it is you. Once you accept it as part of you is when you will show true control over the capabilities inside you; this is when you can choose the difference between your siren voice and your real voice. Before they are a blur and uncontrollable but now you will be stronger than ever." Still laying on the ground I could feel myself be truly happy, like I haven't been for a long time. Standing back up I looked up to the stained glass roof, feeling the Siren mingling and joining with myself I spoke in a voice that didn't sound like mine but was, "Shatter."
Cracks sprawled through the stained glass,the mixture of large crevices to small fractures was true art; then in just a matter of seconds it started falling. Every piece shimmering brightly in a colorful array of razor rain droplets. I closed my eyes and felt each individual scrap and slash through my skin, each an incision of minor importance but everyone proving my control over myself. Blood dripped from the scrapes but through my veins my blood bonded with water as my very insides changed to welcome the siren to converge with my soul. We are one.
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