I rolled down the window so i could feel the early morning breeze on my face, the town was still busy and Joan's loud music made it more alive.

'O MY GOSH!! I love this song, turn it Uup' i exclaimed excitedly as Rihanna's Needed Me played on the stereo. She stretched her hands towards the volume button and increased the volume, it became Ear deafening but I didn't care. I loved it.

"YOOOOOUUU NEEEEEEEEEDED ME" We sang to it as loud as we could and even played it again before we got home. It kind of lifted my heart, I felt alive as we giggled into the house the bags in my hand when we halted. Everyone was assembled in the living room with faces reflecting the exact opposite of my feeling.

Jamie walked towards us and pulled me into his arms, the shopping bag was between us so I moved it aside so I could hug him back "I'm so glad you are ok, we were all worried about you" he pulled me at arms length inspecting me with his eyes"where did you go?"

"We went shopping" I said with a smile to lighten his mood

"You should have told someone atleast" Trijan's voice shocked me as he caught my attention "What if something bad happened to you, what if you got kidnapped or or or you got into an accident" he stuttered as his face showed multiple emotions.

'I went with Joan and i didn't think it was going to be that big of a deal' I looked at his eyes as I spoke,he seemed really worried then he breathed out and then the worry disappeared.

"It's ok" he said pulling Denise into his arms "let's all go to bed" he walked away like he had dimissed the assembly, such power.

Strangely, everyone followed suit leaving me and Jamie alone.

"Sooo.  you still up for tonight?" He asked like he was still uncertain

I smiled "I didn't do all this for nothing" he smiled back moved close to me, his scent surrounded me. It was nice but then it was just nice.

He kissed my forehead with his soft lips "goodnight"

"Goodnight" I replied smiling up at him. I slumped onto the couch and sighed. I questioned myself on what I was really doing and if i was doing the right thing.

It's bad enough that he may not like me back then he just had to be engaged again. I was really confused how did you even fall in love with him? Or was it even love? But why does he look at me like that then just proceeds to kiss Denise? Oh then the kiss, I wasn't even sure it was him.

I couldn't get my answer, I couldn't think straight to provide them. What I knew was he was getting married and nothing would ever happen between us so i had to wake up. Quickly.

The next morning, We went Snorkeling at hanauma bay. The sun was up so the water was pretty heated but I didn't go swimming because I was having abdominal pains, I was about to when I felt something between my legs.

You know that moment when you feel a discharge then a sudden rush goes round your body and tells you that it may be your menstruation. You know that sick feeling of the blood coming to block your fun and how you prayed and pleased for it to come another day. That was how I felt, helpless.

Luckily for me, it wasn't my menstruation but I still had the pains and i couldn't tell anyone but Joan who have me pain relieves.

It subsided it and gave me this light headed feeling.

When we got home, I felt more happy and relaxed when I saw Mr. Bran. I couldn't help but hug him as he stood by the door still keeping his stern face while welcoming us.

"I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!' I proclaimed watching as the sides of his lips stretched upwards but he drew them down again and moved me aside.

"Sadly, I did too" he said giving me a half smile before I went inside.

They were already at the kitchen where Mr. Bran had prepared us a meal, Lean meat and vegetables serves with rice. I smiled as I remembered the night Trijan cooked this then I discreetly tried to look at his face. He was grinning like a child, a sudden joy came on me and my stomach rumbled then i couldn't help but smile wider.

The Meal was delicious almost as good as Trijan's but not as much. Trijan and the guys ate more and the girls just ate to our feel.  Denise didn't like it and she made it open to everyone but as usual the most of us waved it off because we actually did enjoy it then it was down to the last event of the evening. The dinner.

I was tired so I laid on bed trying to rest when Joan barged into the room with a complete stranger. I groaned

"What do you want now?" I asked too tired to handle her

"Well i got you a Mua" she said proudly standing with legs apart and hands extended displaying the Mua

"Mua?" I questioned unaware of the meaning

"Oh my Gosh Ivy!  Makeup Artist "she faceclapped herself and i gave an embarassed grin while mouthing sorry at both of them "anyway what are you will doing in bed?"

"Umm resting"

"What the hell! Babe you got a dinner date in less than 2 hours and you are resting?" She spoke like I was creating a major offence, I still had time didn't I? Unsure looked at my watch as saw it was 7:11pm. . Ok maybe I had a little less time but then it's a lady's thing to be late right.

"What's the Mua for? It's just dinner" I asked looking at the gay looking man who stood quiet surprisingly "hi"

"Hey girl " his voice was a masculine version of too girly... typical gay.

"Well since you don't like my taste in style I figured you wouldn't like my taste in make up also since they are similiar" she explained "So I got him for you since obviously you don't know much of make up"

"Who said so?" I defended

"Come on you didn't know the meaning of Mua" she attacked and i surrendered, she was right I knew little about make up.

I went in for a shower and came out still feeling a little uncomfortable with a man being in the room while I had only my towel on.

I sat on the bed while he unfolded a wide enough mirror in front of me "So my darling what do you want?"

I was tired of this question because I didn't even know what I wanted but I still managed to answer him "something classy"

He smiled, I smiled back as I took time to observe his features. He had an angular face with a fairly perfect nose, a beautifully gelled quiff hair and almost flawless skin exluding the pimples.

Joan vanished afterwards and came back with electric curlers for my hair. I didn't love my hair curled but I had not choice she promised to burn me with it if I didnt stay still so I did. Soon, we were done and i wore my gown.

I gasped when I saw myself at the mirror, it was the first time I looked perfect without Maya, it felt so good that I couldn't help but blush at myself and part of me wished Trijan would see me like that. The Mua charon kissed my chin and Joan escorted him out while I looked at the mirror.

I soon felt like it was all too much for one dinner, like it was just way out of it for a one night thing and i began thinking about reducing my make-up or packing my curled hair up before Joan walked in.

She smiled"you look amazing my dear"

"Quit it i'm not getting married" she laughed at my words "can I ask you something?"

"What now?" She rolled her eyes and left it up then let it fall on me.

"Do you think I'm doing the right thing going out with Jamie? He's cool and all but then you know i don't feel that love thing for him and don't you think this is a little too much?"

She sighed cupping my cheeks "It's just Dinner and besides nobody says you must feel love tho have dinner. You just looking this good to show others what they are missing including Trijan" she replied smiling and i smiled back "now finish up Jamie's outside" she said and left me alone.

I looked at the mirror one last time before picking my silver clutch from the bed and proceeded outside. I bent over to balance my feet in the heels when i noticed a figure halting opposite me.

Trijan stated mouth open as I stood properly after succeding in balancing the heels. His stillness made me more nervous before he opened his mouth to speak and i was ready to listen because in reality I did all this for him.