Back in LA, time was moving very quickly for Niall and Amanda.  Niall was getting ready to leave tomorrow night.  It was not something either wanted to address.  They'd had such a wonderful time together the past few days.  Amanda couldn't have been happier.  She knew what Niall had to do, and she knew what she had to do.  Her job was important also.  She'd known what to expect when she'd started dating Niall, but things progressed quickly in their relationship, and the love had come so fast and hard.  She wasn't expecting this kind of connection right away.  Knowing he had to go out on tour and it actually happening were two different feelings.  She was super proud of him.  He was amazing, he loved to perform, and he was very good at it.  He was loved by tons of people from all around the world, yet he came home to her.  He loved her.  She couldn't ask for anything more.  She was still sad though.  Still sad she couldn't physically be with him for at least two months.  They spent most of their time alone together just making the most of what time they had.  Amanda looked up when she heard Niall start strumming his guitar again.  She had listened to him a lot during their time together.  She would never get enough of it.

Niall looked at Amanda when she glanced up.  There was a song he knew she loved.  He'd decided to learn it for her.  He wanted her to know that it fit them.  He hoped she recognized it before he even began singing.  He smiled when he saw the knowing look in her eyes.  "You know I'll forever be yours. Faithfully."

Amanda's eyes teared up when she realized Niall had learned to play this song for her.  It was one of her favorites.  She never thought it would fit her relationship, but it sure did now.  Her heart swelled with pride when she recognized the song.  She sat and listened as Niall started to sing the song.  A few moments into the song, she started singing along with him, harmonizing with his voice beautifully.

They say that the road
Ain't no place to start a family
Right down the line
It's been you and me
And lovin' a music man
Ain't always what it's supposed to be
Oh girl, you stand by me
I'm forever yours, faithfully

Niall looked at Amanda.  She had a very pretty voice.  He hadn't known that about her.  He smiled and watched her as they finished singing the song together.  "Princess, how come you've never sung along with me before?"

Amanda smiled and shrugged.  "You've got such a beautiful voice, I love hearing you sing."

"You sound great to me.  You should sing with me more often.  I could listen to you all day, every day.  Of course, that's in everything.  I hope you know that what the song says is completely true.  I will be yours faithfully. It may not be easy loving me, because I'm away a lot. But I will always be faithful; no matter how far away I am."  He set the guitar aside.

Amanda got up and went to Niall.  She knelt down between his legs and put her hands on his knees.  She looked up into his eyes.  "And I am forever yours, faithfully."  She pushed up and kissed him.  She looked back into his eyes as she ran her hands up his thighs.  "I'm yours in every way."  Her hands made their way up to his stomach and under his shirt.  "I'm going to show you, right now."

"Oh, I was so hoping."  Niall laughed.  Amanda definitely wasn't shy about showing him her love physically.  He loved every second of it.  Could he let her keep control now though?  He always seemed to lose his patience.  She drove him crazy in every way.  It was difficult to let her tease him so much.  "You're going to ask me to be patient again, aren't you?"

"Well I think you may enjoy it."  Amanda laughed and then took his shirt off over his head.  "If you can be just a little more patient than normal."  She stood up and pulled him up by his hands.  "But the plans I have need to be carried out in the bedroom."  She backed up towards her room smiling at him.

"Oh, geez.  Sometimes your plans scare me."  Niall said laughing and walking with her.

"Well, that's mean."  Amanda said laughing.  She spun him around and pushed him back onto her bed.  "You don't move."  She went over to her dresser and pulled something out and walked back over to him.  "Back up towards the headboard love."  She said standing with her hands behind her back.

"Um, what?"  Niall said laughing but slowly backing up towards the headboard.  "You're a little bit scary like this."

"Stop telling me I'm scary.  Or it's just going to get worse, my love."  She said as she pulled a scarf from behind her back.  She couldn't help but laugh at his face.  "Oh, come on. I won't hurt you.  But it will keep you from being so impatient."  She climbed onto the bed.

"Holy hell, Amanda."  Niall said watching her closely.  "Seriously?  I'm not sure what to think right now.  It's either really, really, hot, or I don't know as much about you as I thought."

"Oh, you knew I was capable of this.  Just admit it."  She said running the end of the scarf up his stomach gently and lightly.  She smiled when he jumped at it.

Niall watched the scarf and his body actually jumped when it skimmed his stomach.  "Shit!"  He said never taking his eyes from the scarf.  "You're right.  I did."  He tried to sit up.  What he thought was one scarf was actually two.  He watched Amanda separate them.  "Oh, shit.  What are you planning?"

Amanda pushed him back down.  "You will see.  Stop being so damn impatient."  She laughed and straddled his waist.  She took one of the scarfs and smirked at Niall.  She took his wrist and very slowly and deliberately tied the scarf to his wrist.

"Are you seriously doing this to me?"  Niall laughed but never took his eyes from where she was tying the scarf.

"Yes, yes, yes I am."  She said as she took his other wrist and tied the second scarf around it.

"Amanda."  Niall groaned.  He never pictured himself tied up like this.  Ok, that was a lie.  He had thought about it.  But seriously, never thought it would happen.  But who better to experience something like this with?  He loved and trusted this girl with his life.  And he definitely was experiencing a lot of new things, new feelings, why not this?  "You're killing me here."

"No, Niall, I'm not.  Just be patient.  It's not even torture.  Ok, maybe, but sweet torture."  She took one of his hands and lifted above his head and tied it snuggly to the headboard.

"Amanda, I swear."  He took his other hand and tried to run it under her shirt, but she stopped him.  "Oh, come on.  You're wearing too many clothes."

"Oh, I will get there.  Patience.  I'm in control.  'Bout time you actually let me keep it."  She took his free hand and lifted it and tied it to the other side of the headboard.  "I'm enjoying this."  She sat back further on his legs and looked him over. "Wow, you're hot."  She slid even further back and undid his button and zipper on his pants.  She bit her lip as she slowly removed them.  She ran her hands back up over his bulge.

"Son of a bitch, babe."  Niall tried to take his hands from the headboard, forgetting he was tied.  "Oh, I'm not sure I'm going to like this."

"Oh, yes, you are.  Just relax.  Enjoy it."  She ran her hand inside his boxers and put the other on his stomach.  "I can make you enjoy."

"Oh, no doubt.  But I want to touch you too."  He lifted his head and looked at her and groaned and laid his head back down.  "Plus, you still have on way too many clothes."

Amanda couldn't help but laugh.  "Oh, you are so impatient."  Amanda took her shirt and lifted it over her head and threw it onto the floor.  "Just a bit for now."  She ran her fingers under the elastic of his boxers and slowly pushed them down, setting him free.  She could tell she was turning him on, even if he seemed conflicted about it.  She loved control.  Well, she just loved being with him, but every now and again, control was good.  And let's face it, this was fun.  Staring at her handsome, naked boyfriend laid out in front of her.  Who wouldn't want it?

"Ok, I'm impatient.  Fine.  Could you let me loose now?"  He asked, looking at her again.

Amanda smirked at the passion in Niall's eyes.  He wanted her badly, but she wasn't going to let him go.  He would enjoy it.  "Just let yourself relax, babe.  Enjoy this.  You won't regret it."  She said.  She reached back and unbuckled her bra and slowly let it drop and slide down her arms, tossing it aside also.  She leaned down and kissed his lips and then down his neck and chest.

"Amanda.  Oh god."  Niall said gruffly to her.

"Shhh..."  Amanda said running her tongue down his stomach.  When his body tightened up, she smiled.  She was enjoying every second of this.  She wanted him to love it.  She wanted him to remember it.  And she hoped it could happen again.  "I want to make you feel it all, my love."  She whispered as she took him into her mouth.  She teased slowly at first.  She wanted him high.  Wanted him to want it badly.

"Fuck!!"  Niall said pushing his head back in the pillow.  His breath caught in his throat for a second.  She was teasing him.  She was being slow and deliberate, and it was driving him mad.  The more he pulled on the scarfs though, the tighter they got.  "Fucking untie me.  I need to touch you."  Dammit!  She didn't even stop.  Not even a second.  "Ahhhh, damn it."

Amanda never paused.  She could tell he was enjoying it.  Loving the feeling.  She worked faster when he stopped speaking, and she heard him groan more intensely.  His breathing started to quicken and became more labored.  Oh, she loved the control.  She wasn't going to stop either.  He couldn't stop her.  She could tell he was about done.  His hips were lifting off the bed towards her.

"Damn.  Babe.  Geez."  Niall stuttered through.  He pulled harder against the scarfs which dug a bit into his wrists now.  "I want to feel you too."  He sputtered out.  But the feeling.  Oh, the feeling.  He couldn't hold back any longer.  He groaned loudly as he let go.  He didn't want too.  He wanted to be in her.  Be with her.  But that feeling.  She knew what she was doing to him.  "Damn, Amanda."  He said gruffly and quietly as he started to come down.

Amanda let him come down slowly and then scooted up towards him.  She leaned over him and gasped a bit as he caught one of her nipples in his mouth.  "Oh, shit."  She grabbed at one of the knots as he sucked and licked her nipple.

"Yes, untie me.  It's your turn damn it."  He flexed his hands.  He was now more impatient than ever.  When she got one of his wrists free he immediately grabbed and squeezed her breast.  "You're amazing, but now.  I want you.  I want to touch you."

Amanda laughed.  "Yes, I'm working on it.  Did you enjoy yourself?"

"Did I....??  Really?"  Niall stared at her.  "You knew what you were doing.  I want more though so get that other tie undone."

"Wow.  Listen to you."  She said as the tie finally loosened and he had both hands back.  She barely finished undoing the knot when he grabbed her shoulders, sat up, and kissed her.  Roughly.  His hands frantic over her back.  He then flipped her over and removed her pants and everything else quickly.  This was her goal.  Make him out of control.  It was nice every now and again to see him lose control.  Especially during sex.  She definitely benefited from it.  She watched his hands run up her legs with his eyes on where he wanted to be.  It was her turn to throw her head back when his mouth found its target.  "Oh, shit.  Oh, god damn."  She said as he wasted no time working her up.  His tongue hard and frantic.  She was already struggling to breathe.  She reached down and grabbed his hair with her hands roughly.  "So, good."  She moaned and bit her lips, closing her eyes.

Niall had never felt so out of control.  He was ready to go again.  But he wanted her as worked up as she'd gotten him.  He worked hard and could feel her moving underneath him.  He knew she was feeling the high he'd experienced.  The way she moved, the way she moaned, the way he could tell she was enjoying it, brought him right back up.  He was ready again.  He used his mouth and tongue a little more and when he could tell she was close, he moved up and into her, hard and fast.  He slowed down for a second when he heard her gasp.  He groaned and started moving harder when she relaxed some.  When she dug her nails into his back, he couldn't hold back anymore.  He thrust fast and hard.  When she started to clench around him, he was done.  They came together.  Neither stopped moving until they both came down from their high.  He slumped down on top of her.  "Holy shit."  He said trying to catch his breath.

"Yeah."  Amanda said panting.  "Holy shit about covers it."  Wow.  She was going to miss everything about him while he was gone.  But they could enjoy each other for another day.  And maybe some more of this also.  She could get through it.  She rolled him off of her and lay down on his chest.  "Oh, I'm going to miss you so much.  Everything.  And this.  I will definitely miss this feeling."

Niall chuckled.  "Yeah."  He said as he rubbed her back.  "I think I may miss this quite a bit too.  But, Princess, I think I need a nap."  He laughed and closed his eyes.

"Oh, you light weight wimp."  She teased.  "Well, as long as I can sleep in your arms.  I think I may take one too."  She reached up and kissed his chin and settled back next to him.  She felt so lucky.  She loved him so much.  They could definitely make it through.  And seeing each other after all that time together.  Oh, she was looking forward to that.  She smiled and sighed happily as they drifted off to sleep.

Back in London, Julie and Harry were just getting finished with a dinner party they'd had at Harry's house.  It was full of laughs, love and fun.  A few of Harry's friends had come and enjoyed a dinner that Julie had cooked.  People had started to slowly leave.  There were only a few left with them.  Julie was standing at the patio doors looking out at the stars.  She turned when she heard someone step up next to her.  She saw Harry's friend Nick.  A popular radio DJ in London.  She smiled up at him as he handed her a drink.  "Thank you.  Hope you enjoyed yourself tonight."

"I did.  Dinner was great.  Good Harry found someone who can cook."  He said smiling at her and then looking out over the backyard.

"Oh, he does ok himself.  I doubt he needed anyone to cook for him."  Julie said taking a drink and then looking out over the backyard also.

"Oh, he's ok.  But, you're better."  Nick laughed.

"Thanks."  Julie laughed at him.  "But, I'm sure you didn't come over here to talk about my cooking skills."

"No, just Harry's lack of them."  He laughed.  "I did want to say thank you.  Also, you looked a little sad standing here on your own.  Figured since Harry was off talking to a few others I'd come keep you company.  Care to talk about anything?"

"Nosey, aren't you?"  Julie asked laughing.  "I'm ok.  Ever since I met Harry things have been, a bit complicated.  They're getting better, but it's still sort of hard to sort through."  She looked up at him and saw the look on his face.  "But you already know that, don't you?"

"Harry may have mentioned it.  We talk quite often."  He said.

"I'm not surprised you know actually.  I'm sure it's been harder on him than he would let me see.  He doesn't want to make it harder on me.  I'm glad he has friends like you in his life.  I just get quite embarrassed about people knowing about what happened.  About how I let it happen."  She said to him quietly.

"Well, I can tell you that no one blames you.  Harry especially doesn't.  I will admit, it probably was harder on him than he let on.  Especially that month you two were apart after your Thanksgiving holiday."  Nick said glancing over at Harry and then back at Julie.

"Yeah, I imagine.  That was all on me.  I can't deny the breakdown I had.  I may not be as strong as I've let on.  As strong as some make me out to be."  Julie sighed.  Will there ever be a time she didn't have to talk about her past.  This new openness was hard.  But she was trying.  Especially for Harry. His friends were great, and Nick had treated her extremely kind the whole night.  She knew he was sizing her up.  "Have I passed the test?"

Nick laughed.  "Oh, is that what I was doing?"  He shook his head.  "He's happy.  I'd never mess with that.  And if it's you that makes him happy.  Then welcome to the club."  He joked.

"I want to make him happy.  Sometimes I wonder how good at it I really am.  But there's no one with a bigger heart than him.  No one as kind as him, and no one near as understanding as him.  If it weren't for him, I would still be hiding in my own little bubble.  Not letting anyone in.  People say I'm strong, and I saved myself.  But if it wasn't for Harry pushing back, holding on, and loving me regardless, I don't think I would be anywhere near the person I am now."  She blinked back tears.  "Doesn't matter what anyone says.  I think he saved me simply by not giving up on me when I was so scared I didn't want to let anyone close."

"Ok, you've now passed the test.  Geez."  Nick said as he watched Harry walk up.  He looked at him and clapped his shoulder.  "Yeah, you can keep her.  You have my blessing."

"Thanks, Nick."  Harry said.  "But I wasn't asking for your permission."  He laughed as Nick walked away.

"Well, what did you say to him?"  Harry said to Julie as he leaned down and kissed her lips.

"Just the truth."  Julie said.

"Your truth?  Or the truth, truth?"  He teased.

"One and the same this time, jerk."  Julie leaned against him.

Harry laughed.  "Thank you for tonight.  Everyone loved the dinner.  It was amazing.  And everyone loved you."

"I'm a pretty good actress when I need to be."  Julie shrugged.

"Shut up."  He said shaking his head at her.  "I mean it.  Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me.  I'd do anything for you.  Anything I can.  You want to know what I told Nick?  I told him what I've told you.  If you didn't push back, if you didn't love me regardless of my insecurities, if you would have taken the easy way out and walked away, then I don't know what I would be doing right now.  Same thing I guess I was.  Hiding from everyone."  She said leaning into his chest.

He kissed her head.  He'd thought about that.  He did have to push her.  Basically, chase her.  From the very beginning. Sometimes he wondered why he did.  It would have definitely been easier to walk away when someone pushed you away, especially as hard as she did at first.  But he just knew.  Somehow, he just knew there was more to it.  Somehow, he could tell that it was a lot deeper than her just not being interested.  There was no other choice for him.  He wasn't going to question why.  There was a pull.  And now, he loved her.  What better thing could there be than love?  "Well, I'm glad I was the one to do it.  I'm glad you didn't have to go through feeling unloved any longer.  Things started out hard, they got harder, and now they're getting better.  The good has by far outweighed the bad.  I'm just glad you finally started to accept my love."

"Eh, I still can't believe it.  But, if it's a dream.  Don't wake me."  She looked up and smiled at him.  When he took her drink from her and set it on the table beside them, she wrinkled her brow at him.  "What are you doing?"

He pulled her tightly to him.  "I'm gonna kiss you, and I didn't want you to spill."  He smiled and lifted her off her feet and kissed her.  "I'm going to thank you.  It means a lot to me."  He kissed her again.

"You going to put me down?"  Julie said shaking her head and smiling at him.  She wrapped her arms around his neck.

"No, not yet."  He said hugging her tightly.  He closed his eyes and buried his face in between her shoulder and her neck.  She left tomorrow.  She got on a plane back to LA tomorrow night and the next day he left on tour.  He didn't realize how hard that was going to hit him.  He'd told her that he needed her.  He did.  He was sure that no one but himself knew quite just how much.  He just wanted her around.  He wanted to be able to come off stage and have her there with him.  He wouldn't ask.  Not now, but he wanted to.  He wanted to be selfish and ask her to quit her job and follow him around the world.  But he couldn't.  He wanted nothing more than to just protect her.  Shield her from all the pain, problems, and demons she was facing. But in the end, she needed to be strong on her own.  He wanted her to stand on her own two feet.  She needed to be able to be strong herself so they were stronger together.  He pulled back and looked at her.  "Let's say goodbye to the rest of our friends.  Then, it's just you and me until you...."  He looked at her as he set her down.  "I can't even say it.  Let's just go say goodbye to our friends."  He took her hand and walked her towards the few remaining guests.

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