Christina's POV

I thought long and hard about all the things Luke had said to me. I decided I would give him the benefit of the doubt and wait until tomorrow. That was when he was going to call me. And I would be sitting around again, waiting for him to call me like a dumb ass. Oh yeah, my life was going great. 

next day

School sucked so hard lately. I only had Sarah to entertain me. She was the only one even worth talking to. She knew what I was going through. She missed Calum as much as I missed Luke. They still couldn't stand each other, but they kinda liked it that way. They were always fighting, but according to Sarah that was the beauty of it. She loved the way they fought. It was really strange to see. And I knew for a fact Calum loved it too. He was mad about her, just the way she was about him. Being across the damn country wasn't doing wonders for them either, but at least they talked on the phone. Luke hadn't even called since yesterday. We were almost 24 hours further and he still hadn't called.. He said he would call me today. I was getting really pissed at him. 

"Want to do anything?" Sarah asked me while walking to the subway. 

"Yeah, but what?" I asked her in return.

"I don't know! Let's go shopping!" she screamed and I caught on on her enthusiasm. 

"Yeah, let's go!" I screamed back and we were on our way to do some shopping. 

Shopping was therapy for us girls, and we did shop until we dropped. And my money was almost all gone.. 

"So, what are you going to do next year?" she asked me while looking through the clothes she bought.

"I don't know, I want to go to UCLA, but I'm not sure about leaving this city behind.." I told her. I didn't even know if she got in to UCLA and NYU yet. I was a terrible friend.

"Yeah I know what you mean. I want to go to UCLA too.. I got in you know!" she told me with a bright smile on her face. 

"YOU DID? AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME???" I scream at her.

"I'm sorry! We've both been so caught up in our boy trouble that we didn't even talk about us anymore!" she told me and she was right in every single way! 

Speaking of boy trouble, at that moment I received a text. It was from Luke. 

'won't be able to call you today, talk to ya tomorrow?x'he said

'yea whatever you like x' was all he got from me. 

He was being a jerk again.. I was getting used to it. Later on Michael would probably call me and tell me they had loads of work to do. But if he had the time to call me, Luke could call me too. And Ash would probably call me too tonight. Luke was making excuses again and I was not going to fall for it. This was it. I was going to play his game and pretend he didn't exist anymore. It was not like he was going to call me tomorrow anyway.. 

 I needed to get my mind of of this. I didn't need to think about all of this.

"Did you know I talked to Conor Maynard?" I told her.

"Yeah and I met Will Smith.." she started to say.

She was taking me serious.. But hey, I wouldn't take her serious if she would tell me this. But still I was dating Luke Hemmings after all.. That could count for something? Couldn't it?

"No seriously Sarah.. I'm not kidding. He saw me and Jamie dancing and he is coming to our show.." I rolled my eyes because she was still not buying it.

"You're not kidding? Seriously! How do you meet all these famous guys!" she squealed. 

"I don't know.. It's not like I plan to.." 

"I know, but still!" 

"I have to get home now.. Stella has been alone for way too long! You can come with me?" I suggested. 

"Ehm, Calum asked me to Skype tonight.." she said a bit hesitant.

"Oh, I get it. Well, bye then!" I said while giving her a hug.

I turned on my heel and walked home. I had a lot to think about. Like how Calum did Skype with Sarah and I hadn't seen Luke's face in weeks. I missed the way he smiled at me whenever he made a joke only he understood. I couldn't pretend that Luke's coldness wasn't affecting me. That was pointless. I was breaking inside. Just by hearing those words from Sarah. That they were going to Skype. Luke didn't even care if he saw me anymore. He could not care less. And I could not care more about it. I wanted him to not be bored of me. I wanted him to need me as much as I needed him. My relationship with my 'parents' was still hard. I had only known for a few weeks that I was adopted. He knew what I was going through. He knew that I needed him and he didn't even call me. A text was all I got. Saying that he would call me tomorrow. 

What was wrong with me? I was pining  over a guy. When did I become this way? I used to be so independent. That was until I met Luke. He had a power over me. Every time he bit his lip and played with his lip ring he sucked me in a little bit more. Until I became dependent of him. Until I couldn't live without him anymore. This was like an alternate universe. I promised myself to never become dependent of anyone. And here I was now. Being dependent of a rockstar. Or at least a celebrity amongst youngsters. I had to get a grip on myself. If he didn't care about me, I should not care about him. But who was I kidding? I was stuck on that guy in every single way. And he knew.

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Luke's POV

I just texted Chris that I would call her tomorrow. What was going on with us? I didn't even want to call her. I even lied about my simcard not working. What was I doing? She was trying so hard. But she had her life there and I had mine here. I was doing my own thing around here. And getting a lot of attention. We were blowing up. People were noticing us for the very first time. Did I really want a girlfriend during all of this? Did I really want to do this to her? She was going to be in the middle of everything for the rest of our relationship. Maybe we needed to take some distance. Not psysical but emotional. The physical part we had down. We couldn't be further apart in this country. She was on the West-coast and I was on the East-coast. 

"Man! You NEED to see this!" Michael screamed from his room.

I walked across the hall and into his room. He was behind his computer again. Every spare second he was spending on there. He loved to play games. And to surf around on youtube instead of doing some actual surfing outside. Seriously, it was sunny all the time around here. If  he didn't have to go to the studio he would never see the daylight. That was how Michael was.

"What is it?" I asked him, a little bored. 

He always had these lame kitty video's. I was getting sick of those. But he always showed me new ones. 

"Your girlfriend man! Didn't know she could dance like that!" he said, grinning widely. 

"Let me see that!" I said and shoved him out of the way.

It was a YouTube video of Christina and Jamie dancing. It was in the streets of New York. They were doing a little flash mob. And it was to music from Conor Maynard. I knew she liked to dance to his music. And she was moving like it was who she was. I could see her very soul in her dancing. And Jamie loved to have his hands on her body. He was so in love with her it sickened me. I mean she was still my girl and he had to learn that. Still they were a dream team when it came to dancing. And I had never seen her dance like this before. It was hypnotizing. When it was over she and Jamie hugged and she seemed really happy. She seemed so complete. Like when I felt when I was on stage.

At that point I remembered why I fell in love with her. She was an amazing person who was a little out of it. But when she did what she loved she was herself. She could express herself through her gift and it was dancing. She needed to do this to keep herself sane. Just like I had to play guitar to keep myself sane. We were the same and that's what had attracted me to her in the first place. And the fact that she was so normal and strange at the same time. What was I thinking? Letting her go like that. 

"I, ehm, have to go", I told Michael and stumbled out of the room. 

I ran out of the house and on to the patio. I needed to think clearly. And before I even knew it my phone was in my hands and I was calling her. I rang a few times but she didn't pick up. Maybe she was busy for a change? Or maybe she wanted me to sweat a little. 

I rang again and it rang two, three, four... 

"Yeah?" she asked me.

"Hey, I made some time for you", I told her with a cheerful voice.

Inside I was dying. Worried that she would be sick of me because I had been such a jerk. 

"Oh, so you found time? Ashton called me like hours ago, saying you guys had the day off", she told me. She was pissed, I could tell.

"I'm sorry. I just needed some time", I told her, not lying. It was the truth after all.

"Yeah okay, maybe I need some time right now?" she spat at me. 

She was not her usual mad. She was REALLY pissed at me. I couldn't blame her. And if she needed her time I should leave her. 

"Okay. I'll leave you then.." I told her, sounding a bit pathetic.

"You can't expect me to jump every time you decide you have time to call me. I'm not like that. It's all or nothing." 

"I know.. I'm really sorry.. Can we Skype later on? I really want to see your face again." 

"Do you? After weeks?" she joked. 

"Yeah, I want to see your beautiful smile again!" 

"Okay.. Give me an hour.." 

"Okay, love. See you later!" 

"Later", was the last she said before she hung up.

I had to try really hard to get her to smile again.

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Christina's POV

He actually called me. That was new.. And he wanted to Skype.. Did he hear me think or what? And he picked up on me being mad at him. I tried my best to sound cold. Maybe that was what I had to do with him. That would be the next approach. Man. The things I had to do for that guy..

An hour later I was ready to Skype. I sat in front of my laptop and saw Luke had already called me 3 times. Jeez, he was being eager. I pressed accept the next time he called.

His face popped up. I saw his steel blue eyes staring into mine. His lip while he pulling it in. He was nervous. I saw his quiff. His hair was a bit longer than it had been when he was here. Who was going to speak first? This silence was really awkward.

"I guess I owe you an apology", he said, sounding a bit nervous too.

"Yeah, I guess you do.." was all I said.

I tried to keep my gaze as neutral as I could.

"So, ehm, I'm really sorry for not calling, Skyping or texting. I really am. Look in my eyes. You can see it", and I did, look in his eyes that is. 

It struck me that he had tears in them. I knew he didn't cry really quick. So this was new to me. 

"Are you crying?" I asked him, a bit worried. "Did something happen?" 

"Yeah and yeah. You don't trust me anymore and I totally get that. I just want us to be us again. Like we are when we're together.." he explained to me.

"I know what you mean.. We shouldn't let the distance get to us.." I answered him. 

"Let's not give it a chance to get between us!" he said with a big smile. 

"That's my Luke!" I told him and I smiled with him. 

"I love that smile, you know?" he said softly. "It reminds me of how soft your lips are." 

I blushed a little. "I really miss you.." 

"I miss you too, honey.." he said, even softer now.

"You're still coming to my show next week are you?" I ask him, a little afraid he's going to say no.

"Yes I am. I miss you too much to not see you!" he said really convincing. I really believed him. 

We talked for a really long time. We even laughed as if we were just sitting right next to each other. It was so nice. It was like he was here with me. He asked me what was happening with my 'parents'. I told him everything and even showed him Stella. He was so happy when he saw her. He was already in love with her. 

I just hoped he was going to stick to his word and be here next week. That was all I needed. 

A/N

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