Luke's POV

She just said she couldn't come with me. Was it about Conor? Was she cheating on me and leaving me to be with him? Please tell me this isn't true. I watched her face closely. She just stood there.

 "Please, tell me you're not leaving me.. Not to be with him.." I said it a soft voice, barely audible. 

"No! It's not like that! I would never.." she said while coming closer and taking my head in her both hands. "You know I wouldn't, Luke. You know me better than anyone else on the planet."

"Then, what is it?" 

"Well.. It has to do with Conor, but not in the way you think. A week or so ago Conor saw me and Jaimy do a flashmob on his music. And he found me afterwards. He asked me if he could come to the performance and check us out. He wanted us to go on tour with him during the summer, but he still had some producers to convince. That's why he's here today. He just told me the good news! We have to job! But we're going to be gone all summer. That means I can't come with you, how much I would love to come.. I just can't do it. I need to do this, Luke. It's my dream! And I know you're living yours! I can't keep you from doing that.. That's why I need to find my own way too.. But we can make this work! I can come see you during some breaks and stuff. I know it because I love you." 

Wow, I hadn't seen that one coming. Did she really just tell me she's going on tour with the guy? And Jaimy too? I needed her to be with me this summer. I just needed her. I knew that we couldn't survive without seeing each other. Look at the last three weeks. We proved it. We can't do the long distance thing. So I did what I needed to do, what needed to be done for the both of us. We were both going our seperate ways and it was supposed to be that way. 

"I'm happy that you're able to live your dream. But it's going to be without me. We can't be together in such busy times, we barely even had time for each other in the past few weeks! And it were just three weeks! Imagine what it will be like when we're away for months! We just have so much going on at this stage in life, we need to do this on our own. Away from each other, no strings. Maybe we can figure things out when it calms down, but right now this isn't going to work. I'm sorry, but I think we should break up.." was all I said.

She just looked at me in horror. And a single tear ran down her face. I wanted to bend over and just wipe it away, but that wasn't my place anymore. I knew that it would only make things worse. And standing here would make things worse, too. So I decided to say goodbye, finally and get on with it. I knew I was going to break down if I stood there any longer. 

"I guess this is goodbye for now, Christina. I hope I'll see you on tv and you'll call me sometime when we're in a better place," I told her and I left. 

The last thing I saw was tears now streaming down her face and bloodshot eyes. She looked the way I felt. And it was aweful. I just spun around on my heels and went outside. I got a cab and went straight to the airport. I was going back to L.A., single. 

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Christina's POV

He just left. And I stood there, just crying. But without a sound. I just watched him walk out the door without looking back. I didn't know what to do. I was in shock. I felt aweful, broken, alone. I decided to spin on my heels too and find a quiet place. And I did. I found a place where no one was and just broke down. I needed to talk to someone. So through all my tears I called one number. And it was the right one. I knew he would help me. I knew he could. 

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Michael's POV

I got a call from Chris. Usually she would text before calling me at this hour. This had to be serious. But Luke was with her. Why would she be calling me? 

"Chris? What's going on?" I asked her, worry seeped through. 

"HejustleftmemikeyIambrokenIcantdothisanymoreIneedhim.." she cried. 

Did she just say he left her? Was it because he was already coming back that she was sad? Or was it something else? He should've asked her if she would come with us on tour this summer by now. Did she say no? 

"What do you mean, he left you? Like he left for the airport?" 

"Noheleftmeasindumpedme" she cried some more. 

I could barely make out the words she was saying. But I heard he dumped her. I needed to get to the bottom of this. 

"Chris, sweety. I'm going to get Ashton and Calum okay?"

She didn't answer me so I called out: "ASHTON, CALUM, GET YOUR ASSES IN HERE" 

They came as fast as they could. 

"What the hell man?" Ashton asked me. 

"It's Chris on the phone, she's crying and saying Luke broke up with her," I told him. 

His face changed immediately. 

"Put her on speaker," was all Calum said. 

And so I did. 

"Chris, what's going on?" Ashton asked.

"HE DUMPED ME AND JUST LEFT" she screamed. And I could hear the pain in her voice. I was sure Ashton could too. I could tell by his said look. 

"But, baby, why? I can't imagine him breaking up with you, he's madly in love with you", Calum said. 

"I got this job as a backup dancer for Conor Maynard but it means I'll be gone for the rest of the summer.. He just told me we have way to busy lives right now and I could call him when it slows down.." 

"Wait, what?" Ashton asked. He looked as confused as I felt. 

"I just miss him so much! I can't do this, please, help me, I can't do this, I can't do this.." she kept chanting this the whole time.

We all looked at each other and nodded. We knew what we needed to do. 

"Sweety, we're coming to you. This time tomorrow we'll be there. Please hang on.." I told her.

"I'll try.." was all she said before hanging up. 

We immediately started packing and just left the house like it was. On our way to the airport I was booking us some tickets. The first I could find. 

We had to get to her before she really lost it.

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Chrisitna's POV

The broken clock is a comfort 

it helps me sleep at night

Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

i am here still waiting 

though i still have my doubts

i am damaged at best

like you've already figured out

i'm falling apart

barely breathing

with a broken heart

that's still beating

in the pain

there is healing

in your name

I find meaning

so i'm holding on

i'm barely holding on to you

I was singing along to broken from Lifehouse. It was sad how much the song fitted my life right now. I was in so much pain. 

Somehow I had gotten home. The last thing I knew I was breaking down in the dressing room and on the phone with Mikey. They were coming here, that's what they told me. And I told them I'd try holding on. But it was slipping away. My heart was in a thousand pieces. When I had gotten home I just slid down the door and cried again. I curled up on the floor. And I had put in my earbuds from my iPod. Lifehouse was playing on repeat. I had so much pain. Stella hadn't greeted me like she would in any normal situation. She laid there with me. Like she knew what I was going through. And somehow I really thought she did. I had lost a piece of myself. And I couldn't cope with the feeling. Him being away was really bad, but knowing this was over made it even worse. I knew he would break my heart at some point. But this was so soon and it was way harder than I had anticipated. And this was all about me living my dream. Had it been worth it? Losing Luke? Just so I could dance? I suddenly didn't know anymore. 

I just laid there. I didn't know for how long, but at some point I heard a knock at the door. But I couldn't bring myself to get up. Maybe it were the boys. But I just didn't care. 

"Chris, we know you're there, please open up.." I heard Mikey say. 

How did they even get my address? Probably Sarah.. Traitor. 

After a while I got up and opened the door. My make-up was smudged and I looked like giant mess. Which I was. My appearance said it all, how I felt. Mikey took me in his arms. And I cried again. Like a little baby. I didn't know what to do. I was ruining his tshirt, but I didn't care. I needed someone to comfort me. I needed Mikey, just as much as he needed me. I knew he relied on me for so many questions, but now it was the other way round. I was broken, for all to see. 

He dragged me to my bed. Stella still didn't make any sound. When he put me down, he crawled in next to me. And just put me in his lap. I was still crying. He held me, I didn't know for how long. I hadn't even seen the other boys. Maybe they weren't here. We didn't talk. We just sat there. His chin rested on top of my head. He smelled really good. And I knew he hadn't shaved in a few days. I could feel his little beard. I tried concentrating on those things so the crying would stop. I couldn't take the crying anymore. My chest hurt. Like my heart had been ripped out. And my throat hurt, from all the crying. And I was pretty sure the water in body was runnig  dry. After a while I stopped crying and fell asleep on Michael's chest. 

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Michael's POV

She looked awful. It was really bad. I didn't know what had been going on here, but it just looked like she had been lying on the floor since she got home. When she opened the door I was almost crying myself. I just hugged her and dragged her to her bed. Then I just sat with her. She cried for a long time, but then she just fell asleep. I knew because the crying had stopped and her breath had evened out. I was heartbroken. Hearing her cry like that just broke it in a thousand pieces. She shouldn't be crying like this. She was amazing and Luke had dumped her. Why? We still had no clue. I decided to lay her down and go see the other boys.

They were in the living room. Playing with Stella. She had seemed miserable too. Like she knew what had happened. They both looked up when I walked into the room. My shirt was soaked with tears, but I didn't mind. 

"How's she?" Calum whispered. I think he was sad too.

"Not okay, at all.. She kept crying, but she wore herself out. And yeah, she just cried herself to sleep. Man, I'm going to cry now, I swear.." I told both of them. 

Ashton looked up at me and I saw he had already been crying. His eyes were bloodshot. 

"I don't know how to handle this, but we have to be here for her.." I told them. 

That's when Calum's phone rang. 

"It's Luke.." 

He answered. 

"Where the hell are you guys?" he asked us, like nothing was wrong. 

"We're with Chris, in New York, you bastard." was all Calum could say before I snatched the phone away.