Luke's POV

"What do you mean?" I ask them. 

They said they were with Chris. Why would they be there? Okay, I broke up with her, but it was for the best. Didn't she tell them? Or didn't she get the message? 

"What do you think we mean, asshole.." I heard Michael say again.

Man, what was his deal. Normally he was like my best friend, but now he was just being a jerk for no reason. 

"Don't go telling us you didn't broke up with her and then leave her like that.." 

"I did, broke up with her that is. But is she really in that bad a shape?" I asked, a little worried. 

"Man, you don't even know," I hear Cal say before I hear a cry in the background.

"Was that her?" I asked, getting more worried by the second.

"You don't have the right to ask that." Then Mikey slammed down the phone on me. 

Did I just hear her cry out like that? It was the most horrific sound in the world and it had broken my heart even more. Did I make the right choice? Should I have tried some more instead of giving up like that?

After that I got a text from Calum saying they didn't know when they would be home again.. 

When I had gotten home I thought they would be in the studio or something, but the crew told me they weren't. I thought that was odd, because they knew I was coming home. And then I call them and get this shit. Why would they go to her? She seemed hurt when I left her, but holding it together. I had a broken heart too, but I managed to make it back home and keep strong. I needed to get to the bottom of this. 

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Christina's POV

When I woke up, Mikey was gone. I didn't know where he was and it scared me. I felt alone again, like when he left me standing there. And I cried out again. Somehow the tears had found their way to my eyes again. They were streaming down my face now. Then Mikey came running in the room and took me into his arms again. It felt so comforting. Knowing he was here made it a little better/.

"I just.. I'm sorry.. I thought I was alone again.. Just like when he.." I couldn't even finish it. 

"I know, I'm sorry. I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere at the moment", he told me and he hugged me a little tighter. 

"I just.." he stopped me mid-sentence. 

"Don't say anything, shhh, talk when you're ready. As I said, we're not going anywhere.." and as if on cue Ashton and Calum walked into the room. 

They both smiled at me, but it were sad smiles. I knew why. What they had witnessed was bad. I had never ever acted like that. And it was all so new to me too. I had been in love, but I never actually loved anyone. It never came to that. But with Luke it was there on the first day. They say you know what it feels like when it's there. And now I knew. And it was heartbreaking to know it would never ever be the same again. 

They sat down on the other side of the bed and they circled me. 

"We're here for you Chris.. Do you want me to call Sarah?" Calum asked me. 

"Yeah, maybe later.." I told him with a little smile. 

"Rachel is already on her way.." Ashton told me. And I did the same with him, I give him the littlest of smiles. 

They both smiled back, a little happier now. 

"Now we need to get some food into you," Mikey said. 

"No, please.." I told him, but he wouldn't take no for an answer. 

He called Domino's Pizza and ordered for us. It was nothing major, but it was food. I really didn't feel like eating, but I had to, I knew that. They really took good care of me. 

A few hours later I had eaten a piece of pizza, the rest went down Michael's throat.. Rachel and Sarah had come too, an hour or so later. They were now with me on the couch. And they were both holding me. They knew what it felt like, because they knew what it was to really love someone. I saw the way they looked at Calum and Ashton. I knew they were really in love. And it made me smile a little. Knowing there was still something like that in this world. 

"Why're you smiling," Michael asked me. 

"No reason.. Realizing the world isn't doomed yet, I guess," I said while pointing to the couples.

"I'm glad you're saying that, really," he said while giving me a soft look. 

He had the most green eyes I'd ever seen and they were so sweet to everyone. No one realized, but he was an amazing guy. And some girl would be so lucky one day. 

"You alright?" he asked me.

I didn't know what to answer. Truth was I wouldn't be alright for a while, but I did have to pick myself of of the ground. I was a big girl and I had big plans. Things were about to change for me and it maybe even was for the better. 

"I don't know.. It's really soon.." I told him with a weak smile. 

"Do you want to tell us what happened?" he asked me and all the conversations fell still. 

"Yeah.. I guess it's for the best.. So uhm. Conor Maynar approached me last week when he saw us dancing in the streets. He thought we were awesome and asked me if he could come to the show. Because he wanted to take us on the road with him for his American leg of the tour. But he still needed to convince some people. So he could decide whether or not to go for us. So he came and he loved us. He told me he wanted to take us on tour. He went on to tell the rest as I went on to tell Luke. That's when he asked me to come with him this summer, I would've loved to go with him, but now I had an offer. An offer that could change my career. And honestly, I thought we would just get through this. We could do this. And his face just dropped when I told him. He turned cold, congratulated me and just told me that we should break up.. We, uhm.. I'm sorry", I told them. Hot tears were running down my face. 

"If you want to stop.." Ashton told me.

"No, I'm good. Uhm, so he told me.. that we had too busy schedules and we couldn't make this work.. He just said goodbye and left. Left me standing there alone.. And somehow I called you and yeah got home, somehow. I still don't know how.." 

Tears were still streaming down my cheeks, my heart aching with the burn of loss. The burn that had become part of me. Like it had all just happened all over again. But it hadn't. It felt like it was going to explode. But it already did. It had shattered in a thousand pieces, watching him walk away. And here I was. With the best friends in the world, but not the person I wanted to see most. My heart missed him, every inch of me missed his touch. My mouth ached for his lips and my eyes ached for his. I needed my fix of Luke. He hadn't called or texted. I was sick. I couldn't do this without him. And I started crying again, for real this time, not just tears without sound. The sound was back. The world came crashing down around me again. I was falling apart, just like I had yesterday. I ran to the toilet, emptying the contents of my stomach. Which wasn't much to begin with, it was just a piece of pizza and some water. I hated it. I hated feeling this way. I hated him for doing this to me. I hated my body for wanting him, I hated my heart for loving him. I knew this was bound to happen. But I still fell for him, like a rock. And here I was now, sick on a bathroom floor, crying over him. I hated myself. 

"Chris? Is everything okay?" I heard Calum say from outside. 

"Just.. give.. me.. a.. few.." was all I managed to say between sobs. 

They knew I was crying. I looked weak and I was. I was a stupid teenage girl who had fallen for a teen idol. A guy every girl on this planet wanted. But still, I didn't listen to my brain. My brain had warned me. When had I become this girl? This girl who couldn't take anything. I had gone through some pretty awful stuff this past month, with my adoptive parents and real parents and sister.. And still I was brokenhearted over a guy. A guy who was bound to break my heart. 

I finally got up and looked at myself in the mirror. My make-up was smeared all over. My hair was a birds-nest. My clothes were rumpled. I looked like a big mess. And I felt like that too. I was pathetic. I really was. I normally was a very strong girl and still here I stood. I locked myself in the bathroom, to clean up and cry some more, without them seeing me. I knew they were worried. But I needed this right now. I needed to be alone and just think. 

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Michael's POV

"She locked herself in the bathroom?" I asked again. 

I was hoping she wouldn't be doing something stupid. But Chris was a strong girl. She would never do something stupid, not even for Luke. Luke was not worth that. He had tried calling her phone a couple of times. I had hid it. And then he had tried calling us. But we didn't pick up. He was the last person I wanted to talk to right now. If he had seen what I had seen here, he would say the same thing. It was truly a trauma. I would never be able to get that out of my had. Scarred for life.. But she seemed okay a few minutes back, before she started talking about it. But it was her choice. She wanted to. 

"Chris, won't you come out already?" I ask through the door.

"In a minute, Mikey," she said with a sad undertone. 

And after a few minutes she did. She looked better. She'd cleaned up, but she always looked amazing to me, she didn't need to clean up for me. But I could tell the difference. She obviously felt better too. She'd had to get it out of her system I guess. 

"Thanks," she said while stepping into my arms. 

"For what?"  asked her.

"For being here and being a damn good friend.." she said while hugging me tighter. 

"For you, anything.." I told her, and I wasn't lying.. 

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Luke's POV

Had she really been in that bad shape? I sat down on my bed and a tear rolled down my cheek too. It had been hard for me too. She was the first girl I truly loved and now it was over. But maybe not forever. Maybe we could pick this up later on. This didn't have to end here. But it seemed like it did. I looked at my phone. I had called her a few times, but she didn't pick up. I also tried calling the boys, but they didn't answer either. But who could blame them? I broke up with a good friend of theirs. It's not like I'm the good guy right now. But they would be home soon. We needed to record some stuff. We needed to get ready for the tour. 

And it was going to be a long ass one..