Christina's POV

Somewhere in August

It had been a few months since the whole Luke thing. I had picked myself of the ground and moved on. It took me some time. And I got a lot of help from the boys and my friends. But I told them I needed to do this on my own. In the end I got why Luke had done what he had done. And I told the boys so too. They shouldn't be mad at him for doing the thing that was right. I'm not saying I would've done the same thing, but in the end it would've come to the same thing. We would've broken up in a way more vicious way than we already did. I knew it for sure. Some people weren't meant to be together. 

"Are you ready?" Rachel screamed. 

"YES!" I shouted back. 

We were sharing a room. We were on tour with Conor Maynard. For the past few months. Right after the break-up we started touring and it helped me a lot. I had something to do aside from thinking of Luke. And slowly it was all washing away. I still felt the dull ache of heartbreak at the back of my heart, but it was not as strong as it was back then. 

Tonight we had the night of and Conor was taking us to some super exclusive club. I needed to let go. So I put on my best clothes and planned on getting really drunk. And it was amazing, because we could just dance the night away. What we did best. 

"Come on! Conor's not going to wait forever!" she shouted. Things were going really well between her and Ashton. They were a good couple and they could handle the whole long-distance thing. 

We ran out of the door. Down the stairs. The others were already there waiting for us. Jaimy was here too. But he hadn't made a move on me since the break-up. Mikey had a good talk with him and he was fine now. He was actually dating a girl from the other dancers. And I was really happy for him. There had been no guys after Luke. I couldn't be bothered. They were nothing like him and I really still loved him, deep inside. I wasn't ready for that whole new relationship thing. Maybe I could just casually date someone some day.. 

Rachel took my hand and we all got into a hummer-limousine. It was huge. Conor was in the middle and smiling. He was really a nice guy. Nicer than I had ever thought. And he treated us really well. He took us to these clubs and got us food and stuff. Not all singers did that. I even got to sing with him at night. He liked my sound. But I wasn't ready to let the world know, yet. Maybe in the future. That would be awesome. 

"So, Chris, first time you're coming with us! Gonna go all the way?" Conor asked me.

"Yeah! I'm really excited!" I said back. 

And I was. For the first time in months I had experienced that emotion. It had been a long time. But I was recovering. In a week we would be in L.A.. At the same time as the boys. I was hoping that we wouldn't see them there. And with them I meant: Luke. That would just shatter everything I had built again. I couldn't face him, not just yet. 

When we arrived at the club the bouncer just let us go straight through. And I heard some people shouting Conor's name. He waved at them and put an arm around my shoulders. He led me inside and then he went searching for the bar. He was so causal. We walked to the VIP-section. I couldn't sit down, so I went for the dancefloor. Some people followed me. I saw Jaimy dancing with his girl and Rachel was coming over to me. Conor was still in the VIP-section. Just looking around and smiling at everyone. He seemed happy too. He, too, had had a bad break-up a few months ago. So he understood what I was going through. 

His eyes caught mine and he smiled at me. He gestured he was coming over. He was a good dancer too. I wanted to see his moves around here. When he got to me he just put his arm around me again and we started dancing. I was just letting it all go. We joked around and he got me drinks. They were nice and I was getting intoxicated. He was too. It was a really funny sight. He was a funny drunk. I had never really gotten drunk. So this was like, my first time. And he couldn't stop laughing. He couldn't believe it. 

"Don't be so uptight!" he shouted at me. I could hear him very good, but he seemed to be thinking it was seriously loud in here while it wasn't. I couldn't stop laughing too. We deciced to head back in a little group. I was too wasted to do anything else but sleep. So we went to the limousine. We were carrying each other. It was a really funny sight. Rachel couldn't stop laughing either. It was an amazing night. As we climbed into the limo we rode off. I rested my head on top of Conor's shoulder. 

"I realy had a great time," I told him.

"Yeah, me too.." he told me and he grabbed my hand. 

I didn't look in to it any further. It seemed normal. And when we got to the hotel that's how we got out. Hand in hand. It was nice for once. He led me to my room and I gave him a kiss on the cheek. I fell right asleep. Tomorrow was going to be so bad. 

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Luke's POV

There were pictures in the tabloids. Of Conor and Christina. They seemed thick as thieves. They were hanging on each other and holding hands. But the worst part was that she looked happy, really happy. I wondered if she had gotten over me.. I hadn't gotten over her. She was on my mind all the time. Next week she would be here. In LA. I was so nervous. I would go and see her. Talk to her. I couldn't be without her anymore. I tried calling her a few times after the boys got back but she hadn't answered. I understood why. But it still hurt. And here she was witn Conor. Being all lovey-dovey. I couldn't handle it. I went to my only source of information: Mikey.

"What do you know of her and Conor?" I asked him bluntly. 

"Ehm, they're good friends.." he told me, a little confused. 

"What's this then?" I asked while showing him the pictures. 

"Oh, that.. Yeah, I should tell you this. She was drunk last night. Conor too. No, they didn't have sex if that's what you're thinking. They were just keeping each other up. You can ask Ashton. Rachel told him so too," he said. 

I went to Ashton. And he told me the same thing. Nothing had happened between them, but they had hold each other up all the night. They were both so drunk. 

She was supposed to get drunk with me. She had told me once she had never gotten drunk before. I guess last night was the first time. And I promised myself I would be there for that first time. Like some other first times. This really hurt my feelings. But it wasn't her fault. She seemed happy again for the first time in a long time. She deserved as much. But I just missed her so much. She meant so much for me. And there she was, with some other guy. Conor was totally in to her. You could see in his look. He looked at her with those eyes. The eyes I used to have. The eyes she used to love on me. It was like something had died within me these last few months. I was mad at myself for doing the things I did. 

The guys had come back and at fist they were mad at me. But after a while they just listened to my side of the story and they got it. Except for Michael. He had been a tough cookie. He didn't want to hear me out. He was her best friend, so I understood. But still. They had seen me suffer too. Still, they wouldn't  tell me what had happened with her. I needed to know some day. But for today, being heartbroken was enough..

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Christina's POV

I woke up with such a headache. I swore to never drink again. And when I walked over to the sink in the bathroom I felt so sick. I had to get this out of my system. I vomited a couple of times and felt better. I took an aspirin. When I got out of the bathroom Rachel was standing there. 

"Oh, man, you look so bad!" she laughed. But she looked bad too. 

I laughed too. So this was what it felt like to be drunk. At the time it had felt great, but the aftermath was so bad. I was definitely never going to drink again. Ever.  

"Your phone was ringing", she told me after a while. 

I went over to my phone and saw a missed call from Michael. He always called me in the morning. This way we could catch up and just talk about feelings. That's how I got through it all. I called him back.

"Hey, drunk girl!" he said.

"Yeah, yeah. Don't be so happy about it!" I said back.

"I heard from Ashton!" 

"Rachel already told him?" I looked at her and gave her a foul look. 

"Yeah, you know those two.. Can't keep a single thing a secret", he told me and I laughed. 

"Yeah.."

"So? How was it?" 

"It was okay! At the time it was really fun! Conor was drunk too it was funny! We carried each other home. He even walked me to the door!" 

"Did anything happen?" he asked me, kind of shocked. 

"Nope, he said goodbye and was on his way. He's just being a good friend!" I told him. 

We talked for a little while longer. Then it was time to go. We had rehearsals. 

"Bye Mikey, miss you guys! See ya next week!" I told him.

"Miss ya too! And yeah! I'll show you all the good spots!" he told me before hanging up. 

I got ready and we were out the door. We had to hurry, it was already getting late. But most of the dancers would be hung-over and so would Conor be. So we didn't really worry about it too much. 

"Oh, my god!" Rachel just screeched.

"What?" I asked her immediately. 

"Luke is totally jealous of the pictures of you and Conor!" she told me with a big smile. 

I was smiling too. Why would he be jealous? Did he regret his descision. Well, he had to live with it. I knew from Mikey he had been sulking around for a couple of months now. He had broken up with me, so he didn't have the right to be like this. He had actually called me a few times. I ignored them all. He didn't deserve this time with me. 

When we got at the stage we climbed up to see a hand full of dancers there. Conor was present. But he looked awful. He looked as awful as me. When he saw me he walked over and gave me a little smile. He was adorable. 

"How was your night?" he asked me with, again, a smile.

"It was okay, yours?" I asked him.

"It was okay too. And thanks for the goodnight kiss on my cheek last night." 

My cheeks got really red. Had I really done that? 

"Let's start!" I told everyone. We had to practise. 

a/n

ow yeah, two updates on one night! I'm on a roll.. 

No I just have a big period of studying and I'm feeling so inspired.. I really need to get this out of my system! So this means a lot of updates on a short period of time! 

Love you guys! 

BTW: who else loves the LIVESOS? and FOUR? I mean, srsly, I am really addicted!!! 

Byeeee

xx Selina