I made my way up to the room with all my things and I sit down on the bed. "Are you okay?" I look at Will "My mom wants us to have dinner at the house tonight." I say to him "I think that sounds like a great idea."

"Really?" "Yes why did you say it like that." "Well I was expecting a different reaction." I say to him he laughs "This is a good thing Alessa you are finally talking to her and she wants us to go over I think this is good for you." " Why?" "Because you have been through a lot these past few days and family is very important."

"Yeah I thought it was." I say more to myself then to him. "You need your mom Alessa." We don't say anything else after that and so I get ready so we can go over to my parents house.

I was nervous about this because I didn't know how it was going to turn out. We made our way to the front door of the house "You ready?" I say to Will and he smiles at me. He grabs my waist and kisses me "Let's do this." He says so I open the door and walk in.

"Mom?" I say loudly "I'm in the kitchen." She yells and we make our way there. "Hey guys it's almost done, why don't you go set the plates." My mom says I nod to her as I get out 4 plates. "We will only be needing three." She says "Where is dad?"

"He had a last minute business trip so he left this morning." "Okay." I say to her as I go set up the plates on the table. She starts bringing the food out to the table and we help her. "Alright I got the rest you two sit down." She says and we do.

She finally makes her way to her seat and we all grab some food. After a little awkward silence she finally talks. "William I just wanted to apologize for the other day. It was not fair to you that I judged you and I don't know you. It wasn't fair that I said the things I did to my daughter either and I could never tell you I'm sorry enough for that.

It wasn't because you did anything wrong it was me projecting my anger on you and it wasn't fair at all. I'm so sorry to the both of you." "I'm sorry too mom." I say to her "So what are yalls plans?" "Well I'm going to be touring in Europe and then Australia so we will be leaving tomorrow."

"So you're like famous?" "Um no I'm just doing something that I love and I'm really blessed that people like what I do. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be going on tour and getting to sing for all of them." "How do you handle the pressure of being in the spotlight?"

I watched as William talked to my mom about what he does and to see the smile on his face when he told her was amazing. "So you will be leaving back to New York tomorrow?" I look at her and I start playing with my hands. "Alessa?"

"No I'm actually going with Will." "What about school? It's fixing to start again." "I'm gonna take some time off." "I don't understand Alessa this is what you always wanted and you're almost done. If you take time off you might not go back."

"Truth is mom I don't know what I want anymore. I had it all figured out then things changed and it just doesn't feel right to me anymore. I had this perfect life planned out for myself, I just don't see that life anymore"

"What do you see now?" "I don't know what I see anymore when I look a head it's dark but then Will came and he is the only thing I see in this darkness. He brought back this light I was missing, right now he is the only thing I see and I'm okay with that."

"What about your future everything you have worked for already?" I laugh a little and I grab my mother's hand. "Mom I want you to know that even with the education I have now I can still get a really great job. I also want you to know that I know what I'm doing when it comes to my future and that you don't need to worry about me."

"You're my daughter of course I worry." I smile at her "I know you do mom but I need this to figure out who I am again I wouldn't do this if I didn't think it would help my future. I just need you to try and understand this is a new beginning for me and I'm taking it."

She smiles and puts her hand on my cheek "This is just like when you first left to college and I was worried about you all the time. Even though I didn't tell you over the years I am so proud of how you have grown. I was expecting you to need me when you left but you didn't. You knew exactly what you wanted and you did exactly that.

Even though I will always worry I do trust that you know what you are doing with your life and I couldn't be more proud if the woman that you are and have become.  I'm sorry it took me this long to see it." I wiped the tear that fell down her cheek. "I love you mom."

I say to her as we both get up and hugs each other tight. She looked over at Will "I can see it in your eyes and on your face when you look at her that you love her.  Please take care of her." She says Will gets up and hugs her "I promise." He says to my mom.

I felt better about everything and I liked it. It was getting late and we finally told my mom we were leaving. We said our goodbyes and made our way back to the hotel. "Well that went great." Will says and I smile at him. We were making our way to the elevator when we seen Alexa and Julian getting off.

Alexa had her bags with her and Julian stopped to talk to William. "Alessa we really need to talk." Alexa says I nod to her as we walk away from the guys. "I don't want to hear that you are sorry or that you feel bad Alexa.

You were the one person I counted on for endless support no matter what because I thought we were family and we always had each other." "You're right Alessa and I know that I am wrong for what I said because you stood by me through my hardest time in my life and I should have done that for you."

"The worst part about all of this is that I see you differently now and that ruins all of it for me. The one person I thought I knew and I thought would be by my side forever and now I'm not even sure I can just let you into my life again. This hurt that I feel from you is 100 times worse then anything I have felt these past few days because it came from you."

I don't say anything else to her as I walk away and go back over to the boys. I look at Julian and give him a hug "Please make sure she is okay." I say in his ear as I hug him. I make my way back to the room, I lay on the bed  and a few minutes later I hear the door open and close. "You need to forgive her."

"I know I do but she is the one person who is supposed to understand all of this even when no one else does. You have no idea what I went through with her after Nick I stayed with her when everyone else left. Her mom stopped talking to her our friends stopped talking to her and I was there.

Through the drinking and the drugs I was there for her because she didn't deserve to go through it alone. She needed someone, she needed me and I was there for her. Then she tells me that I need to figure out what I am doing because she can't deal with it. You know I know that I have been a lot lately and I don't blame anyone for being mad at me but her telling me that hurts more then anything I have felt these past few days.

I needed her to tell me it was all going to be okay and that she understood and she didn't. I don't know if I can just forgive her for that." "Yes you can Alessa, you forgave me." "It's not the same thing Will the situation is different, it is like my brother telling me that he doesn't want to be part of my life. You see them differently and that is how I see Alexa now."

"Okay I can't tell you what to do but you still need her Alessa." He grabs my hands and pins them above my head and kisses me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and kiss him back.

He pulls away from me and I make a pouty face and he smiles at me. He let's go of my hands and I grab him and kiss him again. He pulls my shirt off and I pull his off too. Things got hot and heavy real fast.

We laid there in the bed and I had my head on his chest. I ran my fingers over his abs, my phone started buzzing I looked to see I had a text from Alexa letting me know she was finally back home. I didn't text her back I got up and I put my bra and panties on and went into the bathroom.

I called Dom "Hello" "Dom Alexa is home please check in on her when you can." I say to him "Why can't you just do it yourself?" "Well you told me you would watch after her Dom and we aren't talking right now."

"Stop being an idiot Alessa and talk to her so she made a mistake it isn't the end of the world get over it. We all make mistakes but you are punishing her for no reason." "I'm not going to listen to this right now Dom."

I hung up the phone and went and laid back down. "You know he is right whatever he told you." I groan "I know that. I don't want to talk to her right now Will, she was supposed to be there for me, she was supposed to be my best friend and she wasn't. I can't accept that, not from her."

"Okay but you need to talk to her Alessa." He says I sigh and I lay back down on the bed. I knew that they were both right and I needed to forgive her but I just couldn't get over what she said to me. 

"It isn't going to help you just thinking about it all night?" "How did you even know I was thinking about it?" He laughs as he grabs me and wraps me in his arms "I know more about you then you think Alessa." 

"Like what?" "Well I know that when you are nervous you do this thing with your hands. I know that when you are thinking about something you bit your lip. When you want my attention you make these sighing noises until I look at you. I know a lot." 

He is right I did do those things and the fact that he knew those small things about me make my heart skip a beat. I have been so caught up in myself and my feelings that I totally ignored everyone elses and it wasn't fair. I knew that I needed to forgive Alexa but I just couldn't do that right now.