I woke up the next morning and Will was gone already, I didn't know his schedule I wasn't sure what I wanted to do today. I got up and got dressed I decided I was gonna go check out some things around the hotel.

I walked around a few blocks looking in some of the shops and things they had. After a while I went back to the room Will was back, "Where were you?" before I could say anything he says something else. "It doesn't matter are you ready to go because I have already wasted time waiting for you."

He was not in a good mood so I don't say anything at all. We leave and get in the car as we make our way to some interviews. The whole time I don't say anything to Will, "You alright mate?" Julian says to me. I smile at him "Yeah I'm fine." I say to him. 

We watched as he gave his interview and then we left from there we went straight to the venue to go do sound check. I walked around the venue I walked outside and fans were already waiting in line and the show wasn't for hours. 

I stopped to talk to a few of them and take pictures with them. Ricky came and found me and we made our way back inside. It was time for the meet and greet, I walked into the dressing room Will was getting ready.

"Alessa I would appreciate if you wouldn't wander off because I don't have time to be looking for you." I wasn't sure what it was that I had done to him but I figured it was just stress. The meet and greet came and went then the show came and went and I was tired. I hadn't really talked to Will at all, he told me they were going out after the show and I told him I was just going to go back to the room.

He made a comment about how that was a good idea because he didn't want to have to be looking for me at the club. I went back to the hotel and went to sleep. The next few days came and went and it only seemed to be getting worse as the days passed. 

He would say some pretty mean things to me and I would just brush them off. They hadn't really been getting that much sleep maybe an hour or two at the most. I knew he was just tired, so I wouldn't say anything back to him when he would make those comments to me.

We went to the interviews and did the meet and greet I talked to some of the fans. I even watched the show from the floor, he really did have some great fans. A lot of them always wanted to take pictures with me. I liked being able to talk to them because he meant something different to them all.

It was amazing to me how they looked up to him and he was inspiring to them. We went out after the show to the club, We drank and had a good time and I made my way to the dance floor. This guy was trying to dance with me but I told him no and just like always Will shows up out of nowhere. 

He grabs me a little harder then I liked and I pulled my arm away from him. He doesn't say anything to me at all, he just goes back over to Julian and Ricky and starts drinking again. I wasn't sure how much more I could put up with him acting the way he was. When we left the club it was almost 4 in the morning.

He has another show here so we would be staying here again, we got into the room and I went and changed into some different clothes. He was just mad and I didn't want to make him more mad so I don't say anything. 

"What is your problem?" He say to me I look at him "What are you talking about William?" "I'm talking about you, why is it that every time we go out to the club some guy is always trying to rub up on you or grab you?"

"I don't know Will, I will ask them next time it happens." I say to him I was getting mad now. "You know I'm starting to think you just make this shit happen." He says to me "You want them to be trying to grab on you." I was really surprised that he would say this to me. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything.

I laid down in the bed and I started crying, I couldn't call Dom or Alexa so I just cried until I went to sleep. I woke up the next morning from Will yelling I needed to get up, "Alessa hurry he fuck up I'm late already and I don't have time to wait for you." I was just pretty much done with him talking to me like he had been.

"Then don't fucking wait for me just leave." I yell at him he looked a little surprised that I had said anything at all. "Fuck this whatever." He says he grabs some things and leaves, I sit up in bed and start to cry again I wasn't sure I could deal with him being this way. 

I didn't like seeing him this way as much as I wanted to say it was because he was tired, I couldn't use that excuse anymore. He was angry and I don't know why I don't know what I did for him to be this angry with me.

I called Alexa crying and I started telling her everything that had been happening. She was just as surprised by it as I was, "I'm going to come home." I say to her "Are you sure?" "Yes I think I need to give him his space, I think that is what we both need." I say to her. I start packing my things I get a flight but I had to hurry to the air port.

I leave a note for him on the bed I think we both need our space! It said I was leaving the room when Julian was coming out of his room. "Where are you going mate?" He says "I'm going home." I say to him as I start crying "You are just going to leave without saying anything to him?" "I left him a note. I'm sorry Julian but I can't talk to him right now. He is mad at me or something and so I think it's just best if I give him his space."

"Don't give up on him right now Alessa." I start crying some more "It wouldn't be fair to me if I kept letting him act the way he does and stay here. It hurts that I am leaving but it also hurts the way he has been treating me. I don't know what I did but this is the best things for both of us. Besides I have my life back in New York I need to get back to it now. It was good while it lasted but I need to stop pretending that I belong here in this life. I don't, so I need to get back to my life."

"I'm sorry mate." He says to me as he hugs me I hug him back. "I hope to be seeing you soon." I say to him and walk away. I make my way to the airport I cried the whole way there. I cried on the plane until I finally fell asleep. I was being woken up by the flight attendant saying that we were about to land.

I looked out the window I was happy to be home, I got off the plane and Alexa and Dom were waiting for me. I walked up to them dropped my things on the floor and I hugged Dom and cried. I cried for a long time that night and Alexa slept in my room with me.

The next morning I woke up as if everything was great, I didn't want to let it bother me and I didn't want to cry anymore no mater how much everything in me wanted to. I got up and got ready for the day I walked into the kitchen and Alexa looked a little surprised to see me.

"Are you hungry?" She says to me I shake my head as I grab and apple from the table. "I have somethings to do, I will be back later." I say to her "Alessa?" She says I turn around and look at her. I knew she wanted to ask me if I was okay "I'm fine." I say to her she gave me a no you're not look. 

"I'm fine." I say in a softer voice this time and before she could say anything I walked out the door. I stood outside the door and took a deep breath, I wasn't fine but I couldn't just wait around wondering if he is going to come after me. 

I made my way to the University to set up my schedule for next semester. This semester was almost over, I really needed to get back to school. I was angry with myself and I was hurting and I really just wanted Will to show up here and to hug me.

I didn't want to be home, I didn't just want to sit around in my room and cry or wait for my phone to ring. I ignored the calls and text I had been getting from Alexa and Dom. I couldn't call my friends because I had just ditched them, I left and I hadn't kept in touch with them over the past few months so why would they want to talk to me?

I wanted to call Will and tell him that I was sorry but I couldn't do that either. This feeling that I had was worse then anything I had felt before even with Luke and I could feel it pulling at me. It was like I was walking around like a ghost I was watching everything around me happen but no one could see me or hear me.

I wanted to get out but I couldn't, I walked around New York City not really going anywhere just walking. There were several people taking pictures of me and wondering what I was doing back in New York. It was getting dark now and so I decided I would go home now. I made my way back home and I opened the door and walked inside, "Alessa is that you?" Dom says "Yes." I say as I make my way to my room but he stops me.

"You need to eat something." He says to me "I'm not hungry Dom." I say to him "Well come to the kitchen I need to talk to you." "I really just want to go to sleep." I say to him "Just for a few seconds Alessa." He says I sigh and follow him to the kitchen.

When I walked in there all of my friends were standing there, I put my head down feeling defeated as they stood there and stared at me. I start crying "I am so sorry to all of you." I say through sobs. They all come over and hug me as I cry, "We love you Alessa." Kevin says "We are just glad that our girl is back." Chelsea says. 

"That is why we are all going out tonight so you need to go change." Alexa says. I look at her "It's going to be fine just go get ready." She says to me I walk to my room and get ready putting on my make up and fixing my hair.

We all left to the club and started ordering drinks I put everything in the back of my mind so that way I could have a good time with my friends. Dom finally showed up and when he did Clarissa was with him. "Clarissa?" I say "What are you doing here?" I ask her as she comes over and gives me a hug.

"I came to see Dom." "Dom? My brother Dom?" She laughs "Yes." "Are you two like a thing?" She smiles at me "I don't know yet." She says to me. I watched as everyone looked so happy just enjoying each others company, I wanted to be there with them but I couldn't. 

I stayed for about an hour I found Dom and Alexa "I'm sorry I just can't do this, I am going to go home." I say to them, "Alessa?" Alexa says I shake my head "I'm sorry." I say to her, I find a cab and head home.

I got home and headed straight to my room, I laid on my bed and cried. I grabbed my phone and looked on all my social medias. There were pictures of me walking around New York, people wondering and asking if we had broken up.

I put my phone away as I cried into my pillow until I fell asleep.