I had to wake up early and I was not all that happy about it. I still didn't know if going to Spain was right for me. I didn't want to leave my family, friend or Will but the day is here and I need to make a choice.

I got up and got ready making sure I had all my things in order. I had 3 suit cases full of clothes and a small one full of shoes. Will was still asleep and I didn't want to wake him up. I went to the kitchen and got a cup of coffee and my mom was sitting at the table.

"Mom? What are you doing here." "I stayed here last night." "You did?" She nods her head and I go sit down at the table with her. "So how are you feeling about everything today?" I sit there and take some few drinks of my coffee.

"I don't know mom, I really have know idea what I'm feeling right now. " "Alessa what is it that you want? What do you really want?" "I want to be happy and I want to be with William and I want all of that to last."

"So then be happy Alessa and be with William. Live life and do anything and everything you want that is going to make you happy. Don't settle for anything less because you are unsure of how it will turn out. Live for today don't think about tomorrow, next week, or next month but today and let everyday after that be even better. Yes sometimes things happen that we don't like or agree with, that happens that's is all part of life but things and people should not be a reason to be unhappy. You are the only one who can determine your happiness."

"It's so hard not to let things or people get me down. I had everything planned out for my future and then William showed up and it wasn't something I had planned. It was easy when I was with Luke because he never though about us it was always about him and his future and I was okay with that. I didn't love him and so it was easy not to think about there being and us. Then Will came and he knocked me off my feet because suddenly it wasn't just me anymore it was us. What was our future going to be like together? Then I totally fell head over hills for him and it was only him. I no longer thought about what I wanted with my future because all I want is him. I love him and I don't understand it at all but I guess you aren't supposed to understand love. All I know is that I got so wrapped up it and when it was gone it hurt so bad and I realized that I stopped thinking about me because I wanted us to last forever. We have to think about each other but also ourselves because once we don't work as individuals we won't work together and that is what I don't want to happen again. I couldn't separate it all and it all got jumbled and I didn't know which way was up or down anymore. I screwed everything up because of it but one thing still remained was how much I love Will. Even through all that pain I felt loving him was constant. I can't depend on him to always be there when things get hard. I can't always depend on Dom to be there when things go wrong. I wanted to believe that Spain was my answer to learn to be me again but I was just going to run away because I just wanted all of these feelings to go away. It was my escape from having to deal with it all."

"Life is a roller coaster sometimes it's fun and sometimes we get scared. I can't make this decision for you only you know what is best for you. I just want you to be sure that whatever you choose to do it's because that's what you truly want."

I smile at her and nod my head "I can't believe I was in such a hurry to grow up. It actually really sucks." We both laugh "Yes it does sweet girl." We stay there for a little while just talking and drinking coffee. A while later Alexa and Julian walk in the kitchen. "Good morning beautiful ladies." Julian says mom and I both smile at him "Good morning Julian." I say "Are you ready?"

"As ready as I will ever be." I say to him "I can't believe the day is here and you are going to be leaving me." I could see tears forming in Alexa's eyes. "You won't even realize I'm gone. You have Julian." "Yeah but I like you better." She says and we both laugh "Come on mate." He says to her and we laugh harder.

"Well once I'm gone she will have no choice but to like you better Julian so it's a win for you." I say to him "She is just trying to sweet talk you mate into staying. She really likes me better but she can't tell you that right now. " "If it helps you sleep better at night I will say you are right."

"Where is Will?" Alexa says changing the subject. "He was still asleep I didn't want to wake him up." I look at the time it was about four thirty on the morning and about time for us to leave. "It's almost time have you talked to Dom or Clarissa mom?"

"Yes I called them when I woke up this morning they should be here soon Dom said they would come about four thirty or so." I nod to her "I should start putting my things in the car." I walk to my room and Will is sitting on the edge of the bed. He was deep in thought because he didn't look up at me. "Will?" I softly say to him he looks up at me "Everything okay?" He smiles at me.

"Everything is fine I was just thinking." "Penny for your thoughts?" I stand between his legs and he looks up at me. He pulls me into him and I'm now straddling lap and I wrap my arms around his neck. He leans his forehead against mine he closes his eyes he holds me close to him.

I put my face in the crook of his neck and we stay like that for a little while not saying anything. I kiss his neck to his cheek stopping at his mouth. I stare at him and he puts his head down I put my finger under his chin and make him look at me. I kiss him again and when I pull away he takes a deep breath. "I love you Alessa." My heart ached because it felt like he was saying goodbye to me forever. "I love you too William."

I knew something was bothering him today because he didn't really say all that much as we loaded everything up and headed to the air port. I also knew that if it was because I am leaving he wouldn't say. At the airport Julian helped me take my luggage down and we all walked inside.

I went and got my ticket and we waited there was a delay so we had to wait a little longer. Will still hadn't said anything "Take a walk with me?" He looks at me and nods. "We will be back." I say to them he grabs my hand I was glad there wasn't a lot of people. "William are you okay?"

He nods to me and I stop and stand in front of him "Will please tell me what is wrong. You haven't said anything at all." He was looking down at his hands "Will?" I say a little louder then I planned "Please say something to me."

I could feel the swelling in my chest and the tears forming in my eyes. "Will if you don't want me to go please tell me because I can't take this." "I can't ask you not to go Alessa?" "Why not?" "Because you need to make this choice on your own I don't want you to do it because of me. I want you to do it because it's what you want to do for you."

"Will..." "Listen to me Alessa I love you more then I have loved anyone and that scares me more then I will ever show or let you know." He grabs something out of his pocket it was a little box "What are you doing?"

We sit down but he gets on his knees in front of me and he opens the box it was an infinity ring. "I want you to know that I am committed to us forever and that you will always have me. No matter where you are." He grabs my left hand and puts the ring on my ring finger. I'm crying now and he hugs me tightly "You deserve everything you want in life and you deserve to live your dream. So go to Spain Alessa."

"Okay." I say to him we walk back to everyone "We thought y'all decided to run away together." Dom says to us and I laugh and shake my head. "Come sit with me over there." Dom says as he points I nod to him as he pushes himself over to the seats away from everyone.

I sit down "Everything okay?" "I don't really know, I know that it's bothering Will right now that I am leaving but he won't say it is. I don't want him to be upset that I left." "He knows he can't ask you to stay just for him. " "What if that is what I want him to do?" "It's clear to me that you have made up your mind about what you really want to do."

"I don't know." "Yes you do little sister." He kisses my cheek and I smile at him. They called for my flight and I went to go check in at the gate. I said my goodbyes to everyone "You are going to be great in Spain." Will says in my ear as I say goodbye to them.

I seen everyone leave but Will stayed as he watch me walk to the door of the plane I stood there "Excuse me ma'am I'm gonna need you to go take your seat." The flight attendant says to me, "I'm sorry but I can't go." I say to her as I make my way back to the gate.

Will was gone and I needed to hurry and catch him, I ran out to the parking lot where we had parked I was hoping they hadn't left yet. I seen Will get into the truck and they started to back out I ran over and stood in the middle so they would stop.

"Alessa whay are you doing?" My mom says and they all get out of the truck "Will please ask me to stay." I say to him and he comes over to me and grabs my hands. "This is your dream Alessa you need to go back." I shake my head "Please ask me to stay, it was a dream I had Will but things change. You showed up into my life and I love you and you make me crazy sometimes and I want us. You are my dream Will you are everything I want in life. So please ask me to stay. Please!"

I say as tears run down my face he hugs me tight "Please will you stay here with me Alessa? Because I can't lose you again." I cry more as I hug him tighter "Yes William Singe I will stay with you because I can't be without you."

Everyone else came over and hugged the both of us. Mom, Clarissa and Alexa were all crying with me. "You're sure with your whole heart this is what you want?" Will says to me "Yes this, all of you is what I want." "Okay then let's go home." My mom says.