"Alessa are you ever going to get up?" I hear someone say to me, I slowly open my eyes and see Alexa standing there. "What? What time is it?" I looked for my phone but had no idea where it is, "It's about 12 in the afternoon." 

I groan as I put my face in the pillow "Everyone will be here in a couple of hours so get up." "Okay I'm getting up." I say to her she leaves the room and I sit up in the bed, when did William get up? I grab my shirt from off the floor and put it on as I grab some clothes and head to the bathroom.

I start the shower and wait for the water to get warm, I replayed everything that happened last night in my head. Did I really want to leave now? Before I was saying I needed to get away to find myself, was that really why I wanted to leave? 

Or was it because I wanted to get away from William and everything I was feeling being here? Truth is going to Spain was a get away for me to get away from New York and from William. Going to Spain is something that I had always wanted to do since I was younger. Getting into that medical program was something I had dreams about and here it was.

I know that even if I decide not to go I will be okay, I have been the top of my class since I started medical school it was something I worked really hard for. Being a doctor was what I always wanted to do in life and I want to be great at it and I am. 

My whole life planned out becoming a doctor and starting my own practice. The thing about it was that I hadn't planned on falling in love so it's not only me that I think about anymore. I got in the shower and let the water wash over me, it felt amazing and I felt all my muscles relax. I needed to just stop thinking about the choice that I have to make I don't want to make it.

Maybe as the day goes on it will just come naturally to me and I would know that I am making the right choice. For now I was just going to spend time with my family and friends and enjoy their company. After my shower I was sitting on my bed putting lotion on my legs, I grabbed my chucks the ones Will had gotten me.

He had gotten us matching ones I sat there holding one in my hand looking at it. He had brought them as a gift to me when he came to visit one time when he was touring. It felt like a long time ago but a year wasn't really that long ago, I had known him for a little over a year now, a whole year of being on a crazy roller coaster ride with him.

It seems crazy to me because of how much I loved him now, such little time to have fallen in love with someone, how could I have fallen in love with him this much that fast? I hadn't realized someone had walked into my room until someone touched my shoulder "Alessa?" I looked up to see Will standing there with concern on his face.

"What?" I say as I snap out of my thoughts "Are you okay?" I smile at him and nod "Yes I'm fine I was just remembering." "Remembering what?" "Everything." I smile at him "Alexa is asking for you so I told her I would come and get you."

"Okay just let me get my shoes on and I will be right there." He smiles at me and kissed me on the forehead before leaving the room. I put my shoes on make sure my hair looks okay and then I make my way to the kitchen.

"It's about time." Alexa says to me, I smile at her as I watch her, mom and Clarissa work around the kitchen getting things ready. "Can I do anything?" "No we got it." "Okay, where is Dom?" I look at Clarissa "He is outside." I shake my head and make my way outside where Dom is getting the grill ready.

"What are you doing?" I say to him "Well I'm gonna cook." "No you aren't." "Why not?" "Because Dom you need to be inside resting that's why." "I will tell you what, I promise you if it gets to much for me then I will go inside and rest."

"Yeah mate and then we will take over." Julian says as he puts his arm around Will's shoulder "Fine but if it gets to much go inside Dom." He nods to me and I make my way back inside the girls laugh at me "You know he isn't your patient." My mom says to me I smile and shake my head "He is my brother and I worry about him."

"I know sweet girl I worry about the two of you all the time." I go and give her a hug "So how is everything? How are you feeling about everything?" I shake my head "I don't know. I really just don't even want to think about that today I just want to be with everyone."

"I wish it could just be that easy as saying I don't want to think about it and it just go away but it doesn't work that way Alessa." "Ugh I know but can it happen later not now because I really don't want to think about it right now." She nods to me and I go outside with the guys. "So tell us mate what are you plans when you get to Spain?" Julian asks me.

"Well you know first to find my house and meet my other 5 roommates." "5 roommates?" Dom says I nod to him "Yes 5 because it's a big house apparently and the rent will be cheaper for all 6 of us." "That's smart thinking, so is this cohabitating or is it just all girls?" "From what I have been told I am the fouth girl and so that means there are 2 guys."

"That just sounds like a disaster 2 guys with four girls people are bound to get hurt." Julian says I shake my head at him "Well as long as it stays away from me I'm good." "So you and Willy here back together then?" I look at Will with a help me out face and he just shrugs his shoulders.

"We have an understanding of things." "So what I'm hearing is that you two are back together." I roll my eyes as Alexa walks outside "Who is back together? The meat is done you can start grilling it now." "Will and Alessa are back together." Julain says to her "It's about time because you two are a lot to deal with."

"Oh thanks a lot." I say to her and she sticks her tongue out at me." I flip her off and she goes back inside, "I didn't say we were back together, I just said we have and understanding." "All that is telling me is yes you two are back together. So how is that going to work anyways you will be all the way over there and he will be here?"

"Can you just stop with all the questions?" "Come on mate that's enough." Will says and Julian puts his hands in the air in surrender. "Thank you." I say to him I go inside to greet the rest of our guest as we all go outside drink and they tell embarrassing stories about me.

The food was done and we all grabbed a plate and filled them with food. I was sitting inside at the table alone and Will comes inside and sits next to me "You okay?" I look at him and smile "It's a little overwhelming to think that I am leaving tomorrow and I will be leaving all of this behind."

"I know what you mean that is how I felt when I moved to LA from Australia. I left all my family and friends there but I met some really great people here. You are going to meet some great people and it's going to be amazing Alessa."

"I want it to be amazing I really do but it won't be the same." "It's not supposed to be the same it's something new and different entirely." "But I'm good with everything here." "Are you? Because just yesterday you had your mind set on Spain." "My mind was set on Spain yes but I want it to feel right to me and I'm just not sure it does."

"Well you better figure it out quick because time is running out." "Does it have to run out?" "Well I can say this your time here is either ending or it's not but only you can decide that." "That's the whole problem I don't want to have to decide." "You can't have your cake and eat it too."

"I want you." He looks at me and smiles "You have me Alessa but I can't be the reason you don't go to Spain." "Yes you can Will you can be a reason I decide not to go to Spain." "Will I be the only reason or is there more reasons for you to want to stay?"

"I don't want to have to leave what I have here, my family, my friends, you I don't want to leave that. I don't want to leave here and feel like I'm making a mistake because we are just starting over again and then I'm just leaving how is that really going to work? Because I don't even know."

"I don't know Alessa I really don't know either, look let's just go back outside enjoy the company and not think about this." I wrap my arms round his waist and pull him towards me he is now standing between my legs and I reach my hand up behind his neck and pull him toward me for a kiss.

"Are you trying not to make it back outside because that is what is going to happen if you keep doing this." I laugh as I kiss him one more time lightly on the lips "Let's go." "You two really make me sick." Kevin says as we walk outside "Well Kev if you would mind your own business then that wouldn't happen."

"You do know that is a glass door and all of us were watching right." I laugh and shake my head because he was right and now I was a little embarrassed. Will sits down in a chair and pulls me onto his lap "So tell us Alessa because it's something we all are really wanting to know, when you are in Spain will you be tied down or will you be on the prowl?" Blaine says to me.

I laugh "I guess I will just have to see how I feel when I get there." I say to him Will pokes me in the side a few times and I jump up "That's how it's going to be?" He says to me and I sit back down on his lap laughing.

"So you two are back together?" Julain says "We are working on it." "Okay that is just another way of saying yes we are back together." I shrug my shoulders at him "Really not even just a little bit of prowling?" Kev says "I shake my head at him "Boo that is no fun." "You better say that." Will whipsers to me as he holds me closer to him, "So you are telling me if you left to Spain Kevin would be okay with you having a little fun with other guys?"

I look back and forth between the both of them I look at Kevin "I think they would have to like Facetime or Skype me so I can watch and I would have to approve the guy first." "Oh my gosh are you serious?" I say to him and he is standing there laughing.

"Hell no I wouldn't be okay with that and if he thinks I would be well someone needs to slap him." "Yeah that is what I thought." I say "Besides he doesn't need anyone else he is perfectly satisfied with what I have to offer him." We all laugh now "Okay seriously I think that is enough of that." Alexa says "Oh girl don't even act like that Australian peice of meat right there don't put it down on you real good."

Blaine says and we all look at her and she hids her face in Julians chest "Well not to brag or anything mate but." She starts hitting him in the arm and we all laugh "You better shut it." She says to him "Awe babe you know I'm just playing."

"Alessa I don't know why you are laughing I mean from what we could tell from last night. Will puts in work." "She is right mate it was pretty loud." I blush and I hid my face in Wills chest "You guys are so lying." I say "No they are right it was pretty loud." Will says and I hit him in the arm.

"Alright I think I am officially done with this whole conversation." Dom says "Dom don't think we forgot about you I've heard some stuff." Alexa says "Oh my gosh I'm so glad I didn't hear about this stuff." I say as I look at Clarissa. "Well I figured you wouldn't want to." I nod to her "Really babe?" Dom says to her "I just told her about it one time."

He shakes his head and I laugh I had such a great night with all my friends and family it was late and everyone had just left. I was laying down in bed waiting for Will and I couldn't stop thinking about what I was going to choose.

I knew I was going to have to make a choice but I still didn't have an answer. Will laid down next to me and pulled me close to him, "Whatever you choose it's going to be the right choice for you Alessa." I kiss his chest and lay my head on it hearing the beat of his heart and soon I was drifting off to sleep.