After an embarrassing and awkward twenty-four hours, I got some much-needed sleep. I began packing for my upcoming trip. I figured it would be amazing to travel the world while I still had free time over the summer. I planned on visiting some parts of Africa, South America, and the Caribbean before I start my paid internship in early September.

I've never traveled by myself. It's always been with my family or friends. I wanted to step out of my comfort zone and shell. I have to admit I'm a bit sheltered. So, I wanted to see the world for myself and on my own terms. I grabbed all my new clothes, shoes, and items for my trip and laid them on my bed to start packing.

After packing and straightening up my room, I decided to check on Georgia. There had to be something more going on with her. I didn't think seeing Trent would set her off like that. I called her and was relieved when she answered.

"Hey, Hayden. Did you enjoy your night with what's his name?" she said full of sarcasm.

"Kind of. I don't know what's going on with you... Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that nothing happened between Trent and I. He just made sure I got home safely and that's it."

"Hayden, I am sorry. I wanted to apologize to you for overreacting. Just seeing him bought back all those terrible memories. Trent treated you terribly and I don't want him to hurt you again. He's a jerk and will always be a jerk."

"It's okay. I understand you are looking out for me. I don't know why you two never got along. Anyway, on to something more... funny, I guess. I totally embarrassed myself so I probably won't see him again. And I'm not giving any details," I said.

She laughed and giggled.

"Now, you have to tell me what happened," she begged.

"No. No way! Nope! I have to finish getting ready for my trip. I'll talk to you later," I said right before I hung up.

I did my final check and made sure I had everything including my passport. I cleaned up my apartment. It's nothing better than coming home from vacation to a clean place. My flight was the next day at noon, so I had one more night to chill. It was getting late and I was getting hungry and tired. I made dinner and watched Lifetime movies as I ate. Then I heard a knock on my door. I looked at my phone it was close to midnight. I was quite hesitant to answer, but I thought it was my sister or Jessie coming by after a late night on the town.

I was so wrong. Trent Gates was standing at my door looking good in his gray sweatpants and a black v-neck T-shirt. I was shocked to see him again. After this morning, I thought that was it for us. He was still standing in my doorway and I couldn't move or say anything.

"Can I come in?" he asked.

"Trent, what are you doing here?" I asked.

"To see you. I know it's late, but I couldn't stop thinking about you. And this morning you just left before I could finish what I saying."

"What did you have to say that's important that you are at my door at midnight?"

"Let me come in and I'll tell you," he said.

I invited him in and led him to my navy sectional. I sat down and he sat close to me making me a bit flustered. Those feelings from last night were at the pit of my stomach making its way between my thighs. I couldn't believe I still was attracted to him. I thought it was the liquor that had me like that, but here I was sober as a nun and he still had that effect on me. He put his hand on mine and looked directly into my eyes.

"I didn't want you to think that last night was bad or awkward. I understand that you were drunk and I didn't want to take advantage of you. You have no clue how much I wanted to make love to you, but I didn't think it was the right thing to do at that time," he said.

He wanted it just as much as I did. I wasn't going to hold back. Trent is a person that I always cared about. I was even in love with him. I always wanted him to be my first.

"It's fine. I'm glad you were being considerate of my condition," I said as I moved even closer to him, "but my offer is still on the table. I want to make love to you."

He grinned and got even closer to me.

"Hayden, are you sure?"

"Shut up and kiss me."

I grabbed his face and kissed him hard. As we kissed, he gently embraced me. Then he guided me onto his lap so I could face him. He stopped kissing me and pulled away and looked at me with intensity and lust. We stared into each other eyes saying more than our mouths could ever say. He pulled in closer and put his lips on mine again. We kissed and kissed and I felt the wetness between my thighs as I craved his touch.

He slowly took off my shirt and slid down my bra. He softly caressed my exposed breast. He nibbled and sucked focusing on my nipple causing me to moan. He made his way to the other giving it equal treatment. I was squirming in his lap from all the pleasure. I felt so hot as if I was about to explode right there. I needed him to ease my desire and aching for him.

I got up and guided him to my bedroom. We stood in front of my bed and kissed. His hands wandered on my hips and butt. He kissed my jawline and made his way down to my collar bone. He softly trailed kisses down to my breast again. Then he stopped leaving me feeling empty.

He took off his shirt and pants while I took off my shorts and panties. I stood there naked in front of a man for the first time and I didn't feel nervous or afraid. I felt confident and sexy as Trent admired my body.

"You're so beautiful," he said with his deep husky voice.

I felt like I was going to melt. He sat me on the bed and pulled my legs apart kissing on my thighs. I held my breath in delight. Just his touch drove me crazy. Trent inched closer and closer to my core. He kissed my lips and tasted the sweet juices of my womanhood. I moaned and arched my back as I experienced the pleasure of his warm tongue.

"Oh, Trent... Don't stop," I moaned.

I almost didn't recognize my own voice. It was deeper and raspy. He continued until my body clenched and tightened during my first and intense orgasm. He came up to kiss me and I could taste myself. I was still shaking from the mind-blowing orgasm he gave me.

"You still want to do this?" he asked.

I shook my head yes. There was no way I wanted to stop this, but I knew I needed to protect myself. I reached in my nightstand drawer and handed him one of the condoms my sister put in there just in case. He put it on and nibbled on my neck as he thrust inside of me with so much force that all I felt was excruciating pain. With a few more strokes, I began to wince and tear up.

I knew it would hurt but OMG! What was I thinking? Why did they make a big deal about losing your virginity?

He must have noticed how much pain I was in because he pulled out of me. He had a look of panic on his face.

"I'm sorry, baby. Hayden, are you okay? Are you still a virgin?" he asked.

Well, not anymore. That hurt like hell.

"Yes," I cried.

The tears ran down my face and he gently wiped them.

"I'm so sorry, baby. I didn't know. You don't have to do this," he said gently.

His eyes softened as he planted soft kissed on my cheek and caressed my arm. He got off of me and laid next to me.

"I'm sorry," he said, rubbing my side.

"I'm okay. Trent, I want to do this. I want you to teach me how to make love."

"You deserve for your first time to be special and with someone you love."

"It will be special with you. You have known me my whole life," I said softly.

"Hay-"

I kissed him to shut him up. I wanted to finish this. I've come too far to stop now. I guided his hand back down between my thighs. He pulled away from me again.

"Please, Trent. I really want to do this with you," I pleaded.

I don't know if he felt bad for me or not, but his lips were back on mine. He kissed all over my body, being gentle and caring. He took his time and made sure I was comfortable, but I wanted him so bad. He gently slid between my thighs with a soft and slow rhythm. I softly moaned with each gentle thrust. He made me feel so good and safe.

He passionately but gently made love to me until we both orgasmed together. I was quite sore down there but I didn't mind. The mixture of pain and pleasure was like a bittersweet epiphany. Losing my virginity wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. It was the most intimate thing I've ever experienced.

He laid next to me and pulled me closer to him. Then he kissed me passionately. He broke our kiss and stared at me.

"I don't think I can ever be away from you now," he whispered.

"You don't have to."

I smiled at the thought of us being together again. Maybe this was more than sex, perhaps a sign or something. He ran his hand softly up and down my back. It was so soothing. Then we fell asleep in each other's arms.

I felt a kiss on my shoulder. I turned around to face him.

"Baby, I have to leave. I have to get ready for work," he said as he kissed me on my forehead.

"On a Saturday? I can make you breakfast," I offered.

"Yes and I know. I really wish I could eat breakfast with you, but I'm already running late. I'm so sorry, baby," he said.

I was a little disappointed, but this was a one-night thing. All thoughts of us getting back together went straight out the window. I shouldn't have expected more.

"It's okay. You have a good day at work," I said.

He kissed me on my lips and held me for a few seconds.

"You make it so hard to leave. I'll see you later okay, beautiful," he said.

He got up and got dressed. I laid in bed wrapped in my sheets watching his every move. He kissed me again and left. I don't know why he was making it seem like this was more than sex.

I finally got up out of bed to go clean up. Still sore, I took a long hot bath. I sat in the tub thinking about what happened late last night. My mind was going back and forth with the thought of Trent and I being more. I got out yawning. I didn't realize how tired I was, but I needed to get ready for my trip. My flight was in a few hours. I got dressed. I glanced at my self in the mirror was suddenly strange, I felt different. I was different.

I definitely felt unsure about losing my virginity to Trent. I thought I could just do that without any emotional attachment. There was something there between us. I don't think it was the best idea to go back down that road again with his track record, but I couldn't get him out of my mind.

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