She left me.....i think...
Im not really sure..but...its 80%....that's it...
Its really...i guess over....
Ha....everytime i think about her now i cry...
I cant tell my brother and sister why im crying....theyd be sad to....
....my heart is beating so loudly....
I hate myself so much...for being a pain in the butt to everyone....
My parents....they were right
...im never going to truly be loved.....
Im going to die alone....
I am alone.....
And i wanna die....i cut myself....
Despite her telling me not to......
But i did....
The world is cruel.....
I really actually loved someone....
And they....
They...left me to....
It seems...everyone i love...is leaving me....
And one of my worst fears is being alone...
But thats what i get...
For being a stupid...useless piece of human garbage....to be unloved...to be rejected...
Because.....we all know....no matter how much we dont wanna admit it...i do complain alot...i am annoying...
I know u think so....
I know so...
Ive come to except that fact..
Thats im ugly and unattractive...that im unhealthy and fat..that ill never be loved.....
I know...
And...they were right...
I know what ur thinking....im so young....ull get over it...
It doesnt matter...
U dont understand..im not like most people...i cant get over people.....that quickly if i truly truly love them......
But....this is what i get...
Rn....
Im in hell...
And i seem to be suffering endlessly