Christina's POV

I stood there. Waiting for him on Venice beach. Like a fool. Like the fool I had always been for him. I would've done anything for him and here I was again. I looked around and I didn't see a soul. Which was weird for LA. There were always people around. I just decided to look over the sea. It was beautiful around here. I loved it. I suddenly felt arms slip around me and I turned around as fast as I could. Crashing in to his chest. And there he was. Luke Hemmings in the flesh and touching me. I just lost my mind and all my senses. I looked into those beautiful eyes. They were more blue around here. The sun set made it even more amazing. We just stared at each other while I felt his arms tighten around me. My heart skipped a beat. And that's when it all happened. The worst and best thing of my life. He kissed me. And I hadn't realised how much my body had wanted, craved it. I closed the gap there still was between us and put my hands in his hair again. Pulling the ends. I felt him groan against my mouth. He pressed me even harder against him. I couldn't get enough of him. I felt the familiar cold of his lipring against my lips. I had missed this so much. My heart failed a few beats. I finally had my fix of Luke. My head was swarming. I couldn't think straight. His smell, it hadn't changed. It was perfect. This moment was perfect. Until I realised how wrong this was. How twisted this was. 

I pulled away and he looked hurt. I couldn't do this. 

"What's wrong?" he said in that deep gruffy voice he always had after kissing. 

"This.." I gestured at us, putting distance between us. "US." 

"We are right together.." he started. 

"No, please", I almost choked on my tears. 

"Chris, please, babe. I made the biggest mistake in human history when I let you go.." he told me. 

I knew he meant what he said. Luke could never lie to me. But here we were. He had broken up with me and now everything was over, the tour, dancing and he wanted me back. It was too convenient for him. 

"You just miss what we had.. You don't miss me.." I told him while turning away. He could not see me crying. Not again. I held them back. I was getting a bit mad too. That helped a lot. 

"No, I really miss you.. I miss us. I miss everything we had. The person I could be around you. You made me a better person. I love you. I love everything there is about you. Why can't you see that?" he told me, pouring his heart out. 

"BECAUSE YOU LEFT ME!" I screamed at him, still tears in my eyes. "You left me, like it was nothing. Like you didn't have anything else to do. You wanted to be free from me. And now you have your way and you want back what you lost. Now.. that I'm finally moving on. Now that I've found myself. I wish.." 

"You wish what?" he said, pain in his voice. 

"Nothing.. Let's just go. I don't want to do this anymore. Luke, it's exhausting." I started to walk away from him. He ran after me. 

"You can't do this. I will do everything I can to win you back", was the last thing he told me before I really ran away. 

I ran and ran. Over the beach. People were looking at me funny. They didn't know what it felt like to be hurt like this. To have all that hurt surface again. It made me want to throw up, again. And this time it wasn't because I got drunk. It was because my body was detoxing again. It was getting Luke out my system. Luke was my drug. And I enjoyed everything about him, but he was bad for me. Bad for my selfesteem. He had broken every little piece of me. And now I was picking up the pieces, again. I kept doing that. I kept picking up pieces of myself, trying to put myself together. But you could only do that so many times. Every time you lost a little piece of yourself. That little piece of glass you can't find because it's too little. I had lost a lot of pieces. And the biggest one I lost in his hands. I knew he had it. I knew he had my heart. And it hurt. 

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Luke's POV

She stood there. Watching over the sea. She was the most beautiful sight ever. I decided to take a picture of her like that and show her later. I needed to talk to her now. Show her how stupid I had been. And, yes, I had been an ass. I had been the greatest dick of all time. But I was going to make this up to her. Seeing her today with that guy made me realize that. I needed her in my life, without her it wasn't even fun anymore to perform. I approached her and decided to hug her from behind. That would be a great start. I knew she couldn't resist me. Not when my hands were on her. 

I slid my arms around her waist and she turned around, crashing into my chest. She looked so wild. She just stared into my eyes. And the light reflected in hers. I loved the way her eyes always changed colour. She looked so good from up close. And now I could feel her under my hands I only wanted to hold her forever. I tightened my grip and bent down. Her eyes were begging me to do it. And I obeyed. I could never say no to those eyes. When my lips crashed in to hers it was like the whole world had exploded. My brain went to mush and I couldn't think about anything else but touching her. I pulled her towards me and she put her hands in my hair, like she used to. She pulled at the ends and I couldn't help but groan. She woke up every nerve and cell in my body. She lit up my world. I couldn't help it. I couldn't help myself. And as she pulled me closer I just knew she couldn't help it too. 

And then it stopped. She pulled away and looked at me like she was disgusted. I didn't know what had happened for her to react like this. 

"What's wrong?" I asked her. 

"This.. US!" she gestured at us both as she put some distance between us. 

"We are right together.." I started but she broke me off. 

"No, please.." she begged me. I could see tears forming is her eyes. 

"Chris, please, babe. I made the biggest mistake in human history when I let you go.." I told her the truth. I had been the biggest fool ever to do that. 

I could see her doubting it. She was debating wether or not to believe me. 

"You just miss what we had.. You don't miss me.." she choked out. She turned away from me, looking out at the sea. I knew she was about to cry. I had to fix this. 

"No, I really miss you.. I miss us. I miss everything we had. The person I could be around you. You made me a better person. I love you. I love everything there is about you. Why can't you see that?" I asked her, knowing the answer already. I didn't earn her trust, but she should see it in my eyes. 

BECAUSE YOU LEFT ME!" I screamed at him, still tears in my eyes. "You left me, like it was nothing. Like you didn't have anything else to do. You wanted to be free from me. And now you have your way and you want back what you lost. Now.. that I'm finally moving on. Now that I've found myself. I wish.." Then she cut off. 

"You wish what?" I asked her, as I felt the tears coming. 

"Nothing.. Let's just go. I don't want to do this anymore. Luke, it's exhausting."

She started walking away. I couldn't let her go like that. I ran after her.

"You can't do this. I will do everything I can to win you back" was the last thing I could tell her before she ran off. 

She ran and ran. I just collapsed in the sand. I couldn't go after her now. She needed her space to think about this. I meant what I said. I was going to win her back. No matter what it costed. She was going to be mine again. I had one month to do this. That was how long we were going to be here. This had to work. 

I picked myself up and went home. When I got there all the guys were staring at me. 

"What?" I asked them. 

"You just HAD to kiss her, didn't you?" Michael threw his hands in the air. 

"Oh, god. How can you already KNOW?" I exhaled.

"She told me! What were you thinking!" Mikey screamed.

"I'm sorry! I miss her so bad and I know she misses me too! If you had only felt what I felt.. I need a plan.." I told myself more than them. 

"A plan for what?" Ashton pitched in.

"Getting her back.. Du-uh!" I told him with a little smile. 

"I think we can help you.." Calum told me and we got to work. 

Even Michael pitched in. And we finally had a plan to make this work. They wanted us both to be happy. And they knew we were the happiest when we were together. This is why they are like brothers to me. 

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Christina's POV

I finally got home and ran towards my room. I couldn't face Sarah right now. I had already called Mikey. He had to know. He had to keep him away from me. He was the only one who could do that. I needed my space right now. I felt like I had been ripped open again. I laid my phone in a drawer. I didn't want to talk to anyone. Not even Michael. Nope, I needed to be alone. I needed to think about all this. 

Today two boys had kissed me. One who had broken my heart and one who didn't do anything horrible to me. Will was so sweet and blushing all the time. I really liked him and where it was going. I needed to see where this was going. I needed to see what we could be. Luke didn't have that chance anymore. That kiss had been the kiss of my life. But he hadn't deserved that. He didn't deserve my love. Will did. Did I love Will? Not yet.. Was I in love with him? I didn't know. I only knew him for a week. But then again, with Luke I knew on the very first day. I knew the second he called me backstage. I could still remember it. He always called me Vans girl. Just because I had been wearing my deep red wine Vans that day. He had seen so normal that day. I fell for him that instant. Even before knowing who he was. Why did it have to be that way? I wish I could go back to that concert. 

That was what I wanted to say to Luke. I wished I could back to that day and do it all over again. Just be more careful with my heart. That day had set everything in motion. But  I couldn't let Luke know that. He already had hope that we could work again. I needed to kill that hope. But I wasn't that heartless. I couldn't do that. I just needed him to keep his distance. And just let me thing this all over. Try with Will. That was what I had to do. That was going to solve this all.