We got out of the bathroom and Will was waiting for us the whole rest of the night if I wanted to do something he was right there with me. I wasn't really sure what was going on with him, I also didn't want to ask and then it turn into an argument.

It was getting really late and I was ready to go home, "Will I think Alexa and I are going to go back to the house." I say to him "Alright well I am ready to leave anyways so let's go." "You don't have to come if you want to stay longer." 

"No I am ready to leave too, I have a few things I need to do tomorrow for the last show and I really need to get a good nights rest." I nod to him and we all leave the club and head back to Will's house.

Will and I headed straight to the room and as soon as we were in there he grabbed me and kissed me hard. I pulled back "What's wrong?" He says to me "Will what is going on with you today?"

"What do you mean?" "You are acting weird." "How?" "Well you haven't let me out of your site the whole day." "Well I just want to be with you that's all." "Will seriously what is going on?" I say to him he sighs and he sits down on the bed.

I sit next to him "I can't stop thinking about when you left me, I keep thinking that if I let you out of my sight even for just a few seconds you are going to leave me again. I can't get it out of my head they way I treated you and how I felt when you left and I just want to do everything I can to make sure that doesn't happen again."

He was looking down at his hands and so I put my finger under his chin and made him look at me. "Will I am here, I'm not going anywhere because there is no where else I would rather be then with you. You have me, you have always had me since the day we met."

"I hurt you and I can't forgive myself for that, there was no excuse for me to treat you the way I did then, but I did. How could I do that to you and still expect you to want to stay with me?" "None of it matters to me now Will it happened we can't change it and we can't take it back."

"It matters to me Alessa because you don't do that to someone you love." I couldn't help the tears that were forming in my eyes, seeing him like this hurt me because I didn't know what to say to help him realize that I am okay and yes he had hurt me but I'm not hurt anymore. I forgave him but he can't forgive himself for it.

"Will it's okay." "No it isn't I keep playing it over and over in my head, asking myself why I did that to you. Why I kept doing it to you when I knew it was wrong, the worst part about it is that even Julian told me I needed to stop treating you like that and I still did it anyways.

You would just take it and it would make me more mad because I wanted you to say something and you didn't." I was now crying because I didn't understand why he was beating himself up this much over it. "Will you need to let it go and you need to forgive yourself for it. I am here because I love you and I forgave you for that please forgive yourself."

"I can't." "Yes you can." He shakes his head and I am at a loss for words I also knew that this was something much more to him that I didn't understand and I was going to have to let him figure it out on his own. I just wish that there was something I could do to help him and there wasn't.

"Will I don't understand why you are beating yourself up so hard over this but I know that there is nothing I can do to help you see that it's okay. I'm sorry." "Don't be sorry it isn't your fault yes I do need to figure it out on my own." He gets up and walks out of the room I change and lay down in the bed.

I had fallen asleep and I woke up when I felt Will getting into the bed. It was almost 8 in the morning "Are you barely laying down?" I say to him "Yes." I didn't say anymore to him I needed to let him sleep for a few hours. 

I was going to get up but he grabbed me and pulled me to him "Stay." He says and so I do he wraps his arm around me and he was soon asleep. My phone started ringing it was Dom "Hello." I say quietly not wanting to wake up Will.

"How is everything going?" He turned over in the bed and I was able to get up. I walked out the room and to the patio it was a beautiful day. There was a slight breeze and the sun was shining down on me.

I sat in the hammock "It's going good but I don't know what to do about William?" "What do you mean?" "He is really upset with himself and I don't know how to help him with it. Yesterday he was acting weird he wouldn't let me out of his sight. When we got back to his house I asked him what was going on.

He told me that he can't forgive himself for how he hurt me and the things that he said. I told him that it was okay because I forgave him, I just don't know what I am supposed to do?" "There is nothing that you can do Alessa just don't push it on him he needs to do it himself."

"Okay I just don't like that he feels like that because of me." "He loves you Alessa and there isn't a way to explain why what he did to you he can't forgive himself for. He will be okay Alessa he just needs time to figure it out for himself."

"I understand Dom, how is everything with you?" "Everything is great Clarissa and I are just fixing to go out." "Dom you're mom is already fixing to land at the air port and we need to go get her." I could hear Clarissa say in the back.

"Why is mom there?" "She just wanted to come and visit." "Dom she was just here last week, what's going on?" "She really just wanted to come back." I could tell he was lying "Dom that's bull why are you lying to me?"

"She is here because I am being deployed back over seas and I am leaving in a couple of days." "Are you fucking kidding me Dom how long have you known?" "For a few of weeks." "Why didn't you tell me." I was now crying "You were already so upset I didn't want to make it worse."

"You are my brother Dom you should have told me and I wouldn't have came to Australia. I am going to book a flight and leave tonight." "No Alessa you are exactly where you need to be with Will." "No Dom I need to be there with you I should have been there with you. Why did you do this to me?" I was starting to have a panic attack now because I was so upset.

I couldn't breathe "Alessa calm down." "No don't tell me to calm down Dom you knew and you didn't tell me. Were you going to tell me or were you just going to leave and not say bye?" "Alessa?" Alexa says as I am trying breathe I was crying hard now because I couldn't believe that he would just leave and not tell me what was going on.

Alexa grabs the phone from me and then someone else grabbed me. They picked me I knew it was Will I buried my head in his chest as he carried me to the room. He held me in his arms and rubbed my back after a while I calmed down and just stayed in his arms.

I was still crying "I need to go home." I say to him through sobs "What's going on did I do something?" I looked up at him and I put my hand on his cheek "No it isn't you at all it's Dom he told me that he is getting deployed overseas again and he is leaving in a couple of days. I need to be there so I can say bye to him. I'm sorry Will."

He chuckles "You don't need to be sorry Alessa he is your brother." There was a knock on the door, then Alexa walks in and hands me my phone. "Dom wants to talk to you." I grab it "Hello." I say softly "Alessa I'm sorry that I didn't tell you but you need to be there with Will he needs you."

"Dom you were just going to leave without saying bye to me saying sorry doesn't make it better." "I know it doesn't Alessa but please understand that I did it because he is your happiness and you needed to go to Australia. I didn't want you to cancel because of me, I want you to be happy." 

"I was never going to leave without saying bye to you Alessa, mom, Clarissa and I are going to fly out there and see you. If I would have told you then you wouldn't have left at all and you needed to. I love you baby sister and I will see you soon." 

"I love you to bubba." Will hugged me but I still couldn't help the tears that fell he wiped them away. "I'm sorry." "Why are you sorry?" "I don't know how to make you feel better." "You don't need to make me feel better Will you are here that is all I need."

"Why do you do that?" "What do you mean?" "Why do you try to be so strong when I know you are not okay?" "I've always been that way because I need to be." "No you don't Alessa it's okay not to be okay." 

I couldn't help the tears I sat on the bed and Will pulled me onto his lap and held me in his arms. he kissed my forehead "I can't believe he is leaving again." "I know babe." I guess J had fallen asleep when I woke up I was in the bed. 

I got up and went and cleaned up you could tell I had been crying so I washed my face. I fixed my hair and I went to go find where everyone was, Alexa was in the kitchen "Hey you're awake." "Yeah." 

"How are you feeling?" I looked at her and made a sad face and she made one back to me. "I know I can't believe it either." "It's okay I'm just glad that I get to see him." "Me too." "So you knew nothing about this." 

She shakes her head at me "I didn't know until earlier when you found out, I was so upset that he hadn't said anything. I can't believe he didn't say anything." I shrug my shoulders "Did the guys leave already?" 

"Yes they said for us to meet up with them after you woke up." "Alright well if you are ready to go we can go already." "Yeah I'm ready let me go get my shoes on." I grab a banana from the counter as I wait for her, "Alright let's go." "We got into the car and Alexa drove us to the venue."

I texted Will to let him know that we were hear, he came and got us from the door and we headed to the dressing room. When we walked in Dom, mom and Clarissa were standing there in the dressing room.

"What? What are you all doing here?" I say as I look from William to my brother and my mom. "Well Dom called me and I went and picked them up from the airport." I hugged him "Thank you." I hugged my mom and Clarissa and then I stood in front of Dom with my head down.

He pulled me into his arms and hugged me tight "I'm sorry that I didn't tell you." He says to me and I hug him tighter. "I understand why you did it Dom but you still should have told me no matter what I was going through. You are my brother Dom the first guy to ever have my heart."

"Yes Alessa you are right but the only thing I want is to see you happy. You were so happy when you and Will worked things out and that was all I wanted. I loved seeing you that way and the last thing I wanted was to see you the way you were before.

It may have not been the best way for me to go about it but I did Alessa because you are the first girl who ever had my heart and I would do anything to make sure that you are happy. Yes I am leaving and I know how hard it is for you because it's hard for me. It's even harder this time then it was last time but I am also so happy to see how happy you are."

"I love you so much bubba." "I love you too baby sister." I looked at my mom she was crying as she watched us I went over and gave her a hug. "It's going to be okay." She says to me as she hugs me back. 

It was time for Will to go on and we all went out there and watched the show. "Is this how it is every show?" My mom says to me in my hear I nod to her she smiles and starts to dance. Will grabs her and takes her to the front of the stage with him and they both dance.

I loved seeing her smile and being carefree, I looked at Alexa and Julian how happy they looked together and then I looked at Dom and Clarissa. This whole time I was only worried about how I felt about Dom leaving, I knew it wasn't easy for him or for Clarissa.

He cared about her and she cared about him, he was having to leave everyone he cared about behind and I was only thinking about myself. I don't think I would ever understand how hard it is for him to have to leave us again for a second time.

He was leaving so much more behind this time. I was lost in thought I hadn't realized the show was over. Will wrapped his arms around me and kissed my cheek we made our way back to the dressing room. 

I really wanted to get some air "Hey I'm just going to go get some air." I say to Will "Are you okay?" I nod to him as I kiss him on the cheek my mom wanted to come with me. Dom, Clarissa and Alexa joined us too, we walked out to the front where fans stayed hoping to see him.

They yelled as we walked out a lot of them wanting to talk to me asking me questions and wanting to take pictures with me. They liked talking to my mom and my brother and they were even happier when William walked out.

He took pictures and talked to them and then we left.