I didn't sleep the rest of the night I sat outside until the sun came up. I didn't really wanna see Will there was nothing left for us to say right now, I waited until I seen him walk past the doors and then I went inside and went straight to the room.

I started packing my things up because we were leaving today. I heard the door open I wasn't sure if it was Will or not but I didn't want to turn around and look either. "Hey are you almost ready?" It was my mom but I knew if I turned to look at her I would start to cry again.

"Yeah I'm ready." "Alessa?" I could feel the tears already as I slowly turned around to face her. "What's wrong?" "I really messed things up mom Will wants to take a break and I don't know if we will ever get back together."

She hugs me hard in her arms as I cry "It's going to be okay Alessa no matter how things end up with you two it will be okay you will always love him, but maybe you two are only meant to love each other at a distance. Who knows maybe it will bring you two back together, I know it's hard Alessa but just let it play out right now."

I nod my head to her and she rubs my back "It's going to be hard but he needs his space and you need to give it to him." "I know." She leaves the room and I hurry to finish packing my things. I knew that if I were to see Will now that it was only going to make things harder for me to leave.

There was a knock in the door "Who is it?" Clarissa walks in "We are all ready if you are?" I nod to her "Do you know if Will is coming to the air port?" "Um yes I think he is going to drive us." "Will you call Alexa in here?" She nods as she stands at the door and calls Alexa. "What's up?"

"I need you two to do me a favor." "What is it?""I need you to tell William not to come to the air port." "Why?" Clarissa says "We broke up and it's already hard because it's my fault and I know if he goes today it's only going to make things harder for me. So please can you just ask him not to go for me?"

The both look at me and then at each other "Okay." Alexa says they both leave the room. I grab my things and go put them in the car, I run into Julian "Hey mate." I smile at him but he can see that something is wrong.

"What's wrong?" "Please make sure that he is okay." I say to him "What's going on?" "I messed things up and we broke up." He hugs me "It will all be okay mate." He says to me "Thank you Julian, you really are a really great friend."

He puts my things in the car I walk back in the house only to see Alexa and Clarissa coming out. "He is not happy that you asked him not to go." "I know but it will be our last goodbye and I can't do it, I can't say goodbye to him."

They both hug me as they make their way outside I take a deep breath turn around but someone grabs my arms. I knew it was William I pulled my arm from him "I can't say goodbye to you Will, not yet."

I walk out the door and hurry to the car and get in.

The days seemed to come and go school had me pretty busy right now I spent a lot of time with my friends just to keep my mind busy. He got signed with RCA records had a big party in LA I had gotten an invitation but I couldn't make myself go and see him.

I sent a card with Alessa to give to him I just wasn't ready to say goodbye yet. I knew that the next time I did see him that would be it and I wasn't ready. I knew it was going to be hard but I just wasn't ready.

I threw myself hard into school it kept my mind busy it had only been a couple of months since Will and I split up. I was coming to terms with the situation until one day when I was on Instagram.

I was scrolling through looking at pictures when one caught my eye, it was Will with a girl. They were holding hands the picture said her name was Melissa. I had seen that so many things had started to happen for Will.

He was fixing to start a new tour with Alex he had moved to LA everything was looking pretty great for him and it made me happy. I knew that as soon as I seen this picture that is was time for me to say goodbye to him.

He would text me to ask how I was doing but I couldn't respond to him. I wanted to hold on to him but I had to make myself let him go at the same time.

I knew Williams tour was going to start soon he would be here in New York. Melissa was with him she was beautiful and tall and she was a brunette. She was also Australian, even though it hurt I was happy for him that he was finding happiness again.

I on the other hand wasn't even thinking about dating. There had been many guys who asked me on a date, it didn't seem right and I couldn't make myself do it. I was still hoping Will and I would get back together. I needed to let go of that false hope he had moved on.

Still everyday there were questions about what happened between Will and I. We had kept that part private but it wasn't a secret that we were no longer together.

It was hard to stay out of the public eye but I managed the best I could. My friends decided they were going to go to Williams show this weekend. Of course Alexa would be there too, I got home from school and she was getting ready.

I went to my room she walked in "Are you going to the show?" I made a face at her like seriously you are asking me that question when you know the answer?

"I just thought I would ask Alessa he has been asking about you." "You have a great time at the show I will meet up with all of you at the club after." "Alright." She leaves and I lay on my bed there was a 50 percent chance William would be at the same club tonight.

I'm not sure I am ready to see him, I group text my friends to tell them not to tell Will which club we were going too. It was possible too he already knew which club we would be at.

I still wasn't ready to have my last goodbye with him, I wasn't ready to see him with another woman either. There was a knock on the door I went and answered it and it was Clarissa.

"Hey I figured you would go to the show?" "No I thought you might need company plus Dom really wants to talk to you." It had been some months now that Dom was gone. He didn't get to call home that often so it would be the first time I get to talk to him.

Clarissa and I watched TV then her phone rang it was Dom and so I answered "Hello?" I say but I couldn't hold back the tears I missed him and I needed him.

For the past few months I had held in how hurt I was about everything but all it took was for Dom to say hello back for me to break down. I told him everything that has happened since the time he left until this very night.

I didn't need him to say anything I just needed to talk about it. I needed to get out everything I was feeling and I did. I felt a little better getting to hear his voice and him to tell me he loved me.

He told me he had to go but that he would talk to me soon. I hung up the phone and handed it back to Clarissa. "Are you going to the club tonight?" I ask her she nods her head.

"We should get ready then." We both got ready here at my house I decided on wearing my black club dress and my black booties. I left my hair down and curled it and then I put on my makeup.

We left to the club we walked in and I went straight to the bar. I took a couple of shots and ordered a drink and we made our way around the club to find our friends.

We finally found then in a booth in the back corner of the club. "Hey bitches it's about time you two made it here." Kevin says to us we said hi to everyone and sat down "I ordered us all a round of shots." Blaine says.

We took our shots and Chelsea grabbed my hand and pulled me on to he dance floor. We danced and jumped around to the music, some guy started to try and grab on me. I pushed him away from me and me and Chelsea started to walk away but he grabbed my hand.

"I just want one dance." "I don't want to dance with you so please just let me go." I tried to pull my hand from his but he held on tighter. Someone grabbed him "I'm pretty sure she said she don't want to dance mate."

It was Will I couldn't stay to say anything I just walked away and headed back to the table. Alexa and Julian were there now and with them was Melissa, I stopped before I got all the way to the table. I didn't want to see Will and I didn't want to see Melissa and all I felt was how hurt I still am.

I wanted to cry but someone grabbed me before I could do anything "Alessa." It was Will he grabbed my arm and turned me towards him I pulled my arm from him and took a step back. "How long did you think you could avoid me?"

I had no idea what to say so I just tried to walk away but he stopped me. I could now see Alexa, Julian and Melissa staring at us "We need to talk Alessa." "No we don't Will there is nothing left for us to talk about I've moved on and you have moved on there is nothing to talk about. The only thing left for me to do is to finally say my last goodbye to you." I couldn't stop the tears that fell down my cheek and I was hoping he didn't see it but he wiped it away.

"It doesn't have to be goodbye Alessa, this could be a new beginning for us we could be friends." I start to laugh because I couldn't believe he thought we could be friends. I shook my head "Here I am holding on to the slither of hope that we could maybe one day get back together and you tell me we can be friends.

There is no way that I can just be your friend, there is no way that I can just watch you be with her the way you used to be with me. I can't just love you as a friend I won't just love you as a friend. I don't want just part of you Will, I won't take just part of you." He tried to grab me but I stepped back again I couldn't let him touch me because then I wouldn't want him to let me go.

I was crying and there was no holding back these tears he was mad now I could see it in his face. "You did this to us Alessa." Yes I did do this to us. "Yes Will I did do this to us and it will forever be the one regret that haunts me the most. Now I have to say goodbye because I'm ready now."

"Is everything okay over here?" Melissa says she looks between me and Will and I smile at her "I wish you both the best." With that I walked away from them both I wasn't sure how I made it outside but I did and I welcomed the fresh air.

It washed over me and I wanted it to swallow me and take me away from here.