The weeks went by and things seemed to be getting better I still threw myself into work and school. It helped to keep my thoughts at bay and to stay off all social media. Although things were getting better I still didn't like to see Will with Melissa.

There was a knock on the door "Come in." My mom walked in I smile at her and she walks over and gives me a hug. "You didn't have to work?" "I decided not to do a double shift so I am just working tonight." 

"How are you?" I sat down on the bed "It still hurts but it's getting better I think." "I know it hurts sweet girl but the way you have been it's not good for you." "I know and I am really trying mom I really am." 

"I know you are, so what have you decided with Spain?" "I am still having trouble finding a place to stay if I don't find one then I can't go." "It's all going to work out." She sits down on the bed and grabs my hand "I have some news for you." 

I couldn't read whether it was good or bad news, I was getting nervous "Dom is on his way home." "What are you serious?" I say as I jump on the bed an hug my mom." "Yes he has been on his way since yesterday, he says he may get here late tonight or tomorrow morning." 

I was happier then I had been in a while knowing that he was coming home. I missed him, I missed talking to him and him putting me back in my place. I really needed that from him, my mom and everyone else were right about me not taking care of myself like I should be.

"I can't believe this, I have missed him so much." "Me too." "How are Alexa and Julian?" "I don't really know, it's hard for me to talk to them without thinking about William. I know it isn't fair to them, they don't deserve that from me and I feel horrible for it."

I sigh "I have been shutting everyone out because it's easier to keep the thoughts of him away." "You love him and maybe you always will, love hurts and it's exciting and beautiful it's all these things and it doesn't just go away. Just talk to them they will understand they are your best friends and they love you." 

I hugged her "I love you mom." "I love you too sweet girl and I will make you some food for work tonight." "Thank you." I say to her as she leaves I paced my room for a little while trying to figure out what I wanted to say to Alexa and Julian. 

I wasn't sure if they were here or not, I walked out of my room and down the hall to Alexa's room the door was opened and they weren't in there. I walked to the kitchen hoping they were in there and I was glad that they were.

They both just stared at me "Can I talk to the both of you?" "Of course." Alexa says as we all sat at the table. "I wanted to say that I am sorry I know I haven't been the greatest friend lately and I will understand if you guys are upset with me for it. It's just that it's hard for me to talk to the both of you without thinking about Will and I know that isn't fair to either of you it was just easier for me." 

I took a deep breath "I'm trying so hard to let him go and I feel like things are getting easier to deal with but there is still part of me holding on." "I can't say that we understand everything that you are going through mate but what we do know is that we have seen how hard things have been for you. We understand where you are coming from and I'm really happy that you have come and talk to us about it. We care about you and Will both and all we want is to see the both of you happy, you are both doing amazing things right now and we couldn't be more proud of you both."

I started to cry as Julian says this to me "Why are you crying?" Alexa asks "Because I am happy that I am sitting here and talking to the both of you and I have missed the both of you." She gets up and hugs me "We have always been here Alessa we just didn't want to push, I knew that eventually you would come talk to us."

"I just want you to know Julian that I am proud of all the things you and Will have accomplished together." He comes over and hugs me too, "We will always be here for you mate don't ever forget that." 

I was glad that I finally got to talk to them "So Spain are you ready?" "Well I still haven't found a place or a room to stay in and if I don't then I won't be going so it's really stressing me out. I'm hoping to hear back from a few people who are roommates they were looking for one more but told me that they might have found someone already. So I'm just waiting to hear back from them."

"It's all going to work out I know it is." I smile at her as we sat there talking about everything and nothing. I was happy and I welcomed that feeling, I wanted that feeling. The day seemed to come and go and by the time I knew it was time for work.

I went over to Clarissa's my mom made me some food for tonight I said goodbye and left. Things seemed to be really busy the first few hours that I got there. It was about 2 in the morning when I finally got to sit down and take a break.

I was hungry, I grabbed the food my mom made me from the fridge and heated it up. I sat down at the table and was watching the news on the TV they were talking about the weather. "We just got word that there has been a major accident on highway 54." 

They were live at the scene and we are the closest hospital to that highway so I knew they would be coming here. Chris came in the break room "We have to get ready they are fixing to bring two people in from that accident.

I nod to him as I put my things up "There has been one fatality in this accident." I heard the reporter say, I washed my hands and made my way to the doors they would be bringing the patient in. 

The ambulance drove up the flashing lights were bright they guy was awake and moving but he was pretty beat up. "The other one is on it's way!" They shout and some of us stay there and wait for it. The second ambulance drives in and we hurry out and around the gurney as they pull it out the back.

I finally stopped to take a look at the guy laying there he was unresponsive there was blood everywhere. I stop dead in my tracks "Dom?" I say "He has no pulse!" Someone yells "Dom!" I yell as I run over to the gurney.

"Wake up please! Someone do something!" I yell "Get her away form here." Someone says they grab me "Get off of me that is my brother we have to save him!" I got out of their hold and ran through the doors to where they took Dom.

"He isn't breathing!" I hear as I run through the door "Dom you have to wake up please!" I yell and cry "Get her out of here!" They grab me but I fight them to let me go "He can't be alone! He has to wake up!" 

They pull me out of the doors and I fight and kick to try to get back to Dom. They took me into a room and I yelled and cried, everything around me was falling apart again. "You need to calm down Alessa." 

I tried to get free of them as I yelled for them to let me go. They didn't let me go and I wasn't sure how long they had been in there trying to get me to calm down. I fell to my knees and I seen my mom, Clarissa and Alexa run into the room.

My mom was in front of me and I looked up at her but I couldn't hear anything she was saying. I could see her mouth moving but I couldn't hear anything. I could feel my heart being ripped out of my chest.

Then there was just nothing but darkness, and pain a whole lot of pain I felt. I started to move around I could feel someone rubbing my back. I opened my eyes and blinked a few times I picked up my head and look at the person touching me.

It was my mom she was sitting on the floor I looked around and realized I too was on the floor. I felt broken inside "Mom?" I say as I look at her and start crying, she started crying too. "Where is he?"

She stayed silent and I could only think that the worst has happened. "No, mom please tell me that he is okay. Please." I say to her she grabs me and holds me tight she was crying "They have him back for surgery right now." 

I relaxed a little because then that meant he was stable, but we wouldn't know for sure until after the surgery and it felt like years that I laid here on the floor with my head in my moms lap. The doctor finally came in and said everything went good and that they were taking him to his room.

I hadn't realized everyone here waiting as we were, I looked at everyone but there was one pair of eyes I couldn't take my eyes off. He gets up walks over to me and wraps his arms around me I wrapped my arms around him and cried some more. 

"I'm sorry Alessa." He says to me as he lets me go, mom, Clarissa and I walk to the room they had Dom in. It broke me to see him laying there I walked over to the bed grabbed his hand and kissed it.

"I love you Dom." "You need to go home now Alessa and get some sleep." My mom says to me "I can't leave now." I say to her she puts a piece of hair behind my ear and she puts her hand on my cheek.

"Yes you can you are tired and you need a shower and some food. Please listen to me for once and go get some rest. I will call you if anything changes." I hadn't realized before how tired she looked and maybe it was because all the worry I put her through.

"Okay." I say to her softly as I hug her and then I hug Clarissa, I walk back to the waiting room everyone was in and Alexa and Julian get up and walk over to me. I hug them both "Do you mind taking me home?" 

"I will take her if that's okay?" Will says we all look over at him and then they look at me. "Yeah it's fine." I say "We will see you later we are going to stay here a while." I nod to them as Will and I left the hospital.

The ride home was a silent one I didn't know what to say to him. We got to my house and I went straight to my room, I grabbed some clothes and went to take a shower. My mom was right I did look tired my eyes were puffy and red and my hair was a mess.

I turned on the water and let it warm up and then I got in stood under the warm water. I got out dried off and got dressed and walked out the bathroom and Will was there sitting on my bed. I lay down on the other side of the bed "Are you okay?" 

He says to me as he looks at me "I want to be okay." "What do you mean?" "I mean that I haven't been okay for months and I was finally starting to feel okay again and then this happens. I can't handle all of this." 

"I'm sorry." "What are you sorry for?" "That you have been going through all of this." "It isn't your fault it's mine. It doesn't matter now I need to get over it." "It matters to me Alessa, you matter to me." 

"I don't want to hear how I matter to you Will. I can't do this, it hurts to much and it doesn't make anything better." "You don't think it hurts me? It does." I want to believe him but there is part or me that doesn't.

I shake my head "I can't do this again Will." "Do what?" "Let you back in, I can't do it again. It has literally broken me to a point that I almost couldn't come back from." "You think your the only one broken Alessa? You have no idea what I was going through, so don't sit there and tell me how you can't do this again."

This triggered something in me as he was saying it to me. "Fuck that Will because we could have been together months ago and you pushed me away, telling me how we can be friends. What kind of bullshit is that? There is no way I can ever just be your friend, I know I fucked this up and that is what kills me the most." 

I was starting to cry and it was really pissing me off "You moved on with some other girl so don't fucking sit there and tell me how fucking broken you are about all of this because it's all bullshit. You want to keep blaming me for messing it up but you let me go that night I told you I still loved you at the club."

"What was I supposed to do Alessa?" "You did exactly what you were supposed to do William, you moved on. I really have been trying so hard to do the same, truth is I'm not upset that you wanted to move on you deserve to be happy, I'm upset that I can't move on because a part of me can't let you go." 

"Why do you have to let me go? I'm right here Alessa don't you see that." "You're not mine to hold onto anymore." I lay down and turn my back towards him, I didn't want to talk about this anymore and I didn't want him to see me cry.